Help me get over him.Please.

Well,as you can see for my other questions,I cant get over him.He is supposedly dating this ugly fat blonde (SERIOUSLY! IF HER EYES WERE MORE CLOSER TOGETHER SHE WOULD LOOK HALF-DECENT!!!) .Not to be beetchy,But I honestly thought I was 100% better for him and better looking!…But they are going to the movies on Sat and that makes me want to puke.He dumped me about 4 days ago,and now he already has a chick! What a player! But I would think like”Ewww…I wouldent date him again,he hurt me…I will find somebody better for me.” But when I see him,I want him more than ever. But,he exchanged digits with this Godzilla-looking Bleach Blonde and everybody was telling them to hold hands…I wanted to grab that SLUUT By the face,and make her eat the dirt at my feet!! Then,attack him…Im confusing myself,I wasnt expexting to hurt like this AT ALL.He didnt have a good reason to call it quits and give up on me.We were going out for almost a year and he just gave up on me.I felt actual feelings and wanted everything in my life to include him.Its obvious it meant nothing to him,but it meant a SOMETHING to me! I’ve already realized I dont need him to do more damage to me! He decided to let go of someone who would take a bullet for him and throw them to the dumps.I did almost everything to just let him see me and win his heart,but he took it all for granted.Im HEARTBROKEN and im embarrassed to say,im scared to date again.Im scared to fall in love and im just scared that I will not find true love in my life.I need to get over him and move on,and everytime I see him,its like I just got a concussion but worse.I hate all the feelings im feeling…I already quit cutting myself…And im scared I will get back to it…He is KILLING ME!!! All the crying,blood,sweat,and tears are smothering me! SOMEBODY HELP! Im currently seeing a couselor so I dont need anymore of that B.S. of “OH,SEE AN F@$#%#$%#$! THERAPIST!” I need someone who will understand..Someone who wont misjudge me,who ill understand where im coming from and help me get over this heartbreaker.Please,somebody just help me.