How do I tell my mom I'm not ready to see her?

my mom left me 2 years ago to live wit another guy and she was doing drugs!!she didnt even want to see me,and she moved far away

and now that shes clean she wants me to visit her but I dont know if im ready?

what should I do?

well that is ok because you are not ready yet and she will have to understand that and deal with it she is not soppose to see you when she feels like it you should be deciding when you want to see her and right now you are not really ready to see her because she has not been around before and she left you. Just because you are not ready to see your birth mother that is ok because that is just the way you feel right now and there is nothing wrong with that take your time and when you fell ready to see her then you go vist and talk to your mother. ok good luck!