How can I let go of my past?

OKKKAY MY CHILD HOOD IS TAKIN' CONTROL OF MY LIFE...WELL IT ALWAYS GTTS DA BEST OF ME...EVERYDAY I CRY THINKIN' BOUT HOW MY MAM TREATED ME AND HOW MY DAD CHOOSE DURGS OVER ME...AND HOW EVERYBODY WHO SAID DEY LOVE LEFT ONCE DEY GOT OLDER...IT HURT ME SO BAD that MY CHILDHIOOD KEEP CUMIN' UP IN MY MIND...I ALWAYS THINK BOUT HOW NO ONE LOVED ME AND HOW IT WAS SO HARD 2 B 1 OUT OF 5 KIDS TREATED BAD...MY CUZIN TELLS ME 2 ASK MY MAMA why SHE TREATED ME SO BADLY...BUT SHE HURT ME SO BAD IF I START TALKIN' I WILL FALLI INTO TEARS...please TELL IS THERE A WAYS I CAN LET GO OF MY PAST WITHOUT TALKIN' TO DA PERSON WHO CREATEDDIS BAD PASS...

your story is so touching
I wish I could do something to help
I think the only thing you can do is talk to your mum
but if anything don't be angry at her,, just feel sorry for her and make yourself a better more wise person from it
remember its never your fault that she treated you that way or your dad's for the drugs
remember rich famous inspirational people went through situations like yours or worse! like Oprah Winfrey getting raped by her uncle or father or something sick
hope I helped xxx

just forget about it. think about something else.

try learning how to speak english first

Is there anyone else you could talk to about your sad situation?Maybe a counciler[soz cant spell it]. I had a poo childhood and found by writing things down made me feel a lot better,I still keep a journel today.Somehow I've never let my past get in the way of who I am,if anything its made me a much stronger person so you could turn this around and vow that you are better then these people that hurt you and no one will hurt you again,be the bigger person and move on with your life and when you get older and have children of your own give them a decent life,I life you never had and be a better parent then they have ever been.Good luck to you

Im not very experienced at this (Im only thirteen!) but I reckon you should see a psychiatrist because they see these sorta cases all the time I bet and they make it their mission to help you! and it always helps to have friends to talk to. (good ones! ones that will really listen and give meaningful advice.) hope that helps and wish you all the luck!