Hating your mother?

I cant help but hate my mother, yes I know this sounds awful but I hate my mother and I want to stop hating her but I cant help it. I'm angry with my mother because I got taken away from my family yes a parent who did cocaine and drank constantly...

although I did come from money. My mother she never stopped lieing she never told the truth to me as I recall I am weak, a b*tch from hell, and never wanted in her life, I am an excuse for a daughter. There was a man who would hurt me at night who would hit me and do disturbing things to me, he was always drunk, and has been in jail for drug use as well,he had a violent temper. Most of the time I would cry and hide praying that I didn't get hurt he would touch me and say he was going to kill me or find and kill my mother. My mother doesn't give a d*mn about me when I went to the hospital for suicide she didn't care she just laughed it hurt so much all she cares about his her looks and hoping she will find love (give me a break). To her I'm ugly and fat and in my point of view I'm never going to find anyone not decent family, no partner, no one I'm going to die alone with no ever to hold. She never did anything to help me she never cared I need to let go of the past but how may I do that? How do I not hate my mother? (She hates me and I know that for a fact I believe she said once) She also doesn't care if I see my real family ever again maybe someday I will on my own.

If you want to stop hating her, you're going to have to do one of the most difficult things in your life - you first have to forgive her.

Forgiveness is the beginning of healing. When you forgive things will change within you. LIfe will be good then. Let God show you how to forgive her, without Him you will always be filled with hate; hate turns to bitterness, and bitterness leads to a miserable, short life.

I agree with Orion. I believe you need to forgive her first. That's going to be a big step but you should do it anyway.

It'll be hard to forgive your mother but, if you let god help you, then you'll be set.
You can live with a close friend so you won't have to put up with your mother. I would also see a counselor to help you forgive her since you really can't do it alone. If your mother didn't want you in the first place, then why did she have sex? That's beside the point. If I was your mother, I'd be blessed to have a daughter like you. I love babies and people in general.
She definitely needs help. That's terrible of her for saying mean things to you and not supporting you. My mother was like that with me as I got older into my teens and my young adult life. The difference, I was adopted and she wanted a girl. For the most part up until my teens and adult life, she's supported me. Then I had my share of abuse too. You're not alone.
My best suggestion as I mentioned previously would be to see a counselor. They can help you with your family issues. And, move out of your mothers' house. You don't need to put up with her. All she is, is a selfish B*tch who doesn't care one bit about her daughter whoes trying to live a normal life. She'll never find love. You will! you shouldn't say negative things about yourself either since I'm sure you're very pretty.
Pray for guidance and forgiveness and see if you can get counseling.
I wish you the best of luck. Oh, you'll eventually get to see your real family someday. It'll take time.

I use to hate both my parents. One abused me, the other was never there, till everything ended.
I was so mad with them both that the more I hated them the more angry I got with anyone. I learned instead of hating them, I'd just live a better life, without them. Live peacefully without there help. Thats the only way I could really let go. You really must stay with friends or anywhere you think is safe, and you need to call the authorities about what the man who abused you, and how your mother knew and didn't care. I wish I had the chance to tell someone who cared about what was going on when I was younger Be strong!