Depression is getting worse and worse

Im getting worse and worse. I've been depressed for a while latley, and I have had many suicidal thoughts. I feel I dont have anyone to talk to, and I really need help badly. I dont want to do anything but I have a feeling that one day im going to come home and just end it all. I dont want that happening. I dont know what to do, im completly lost with it all. These feelings have been stuck with me for almost a year now, but its been these last 3 months that its been very bad. I really dont know what to do. If you can help or feel you can please feel free to say anything at all, negative or positive, I just need help.

do not punch a wall...hold an ice cube in your hand until it melts, or put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it (until you can stop hurting yourself).

and listen, hurting yourself will only make things worse. and please please please, do not kill yourself, I know the feeling of wanting to do so, but you have to stop because you CAN conquer the pain you feel

GO TO THERAPY. IT'S THE ONLY WAY. It's not fun, but you've got to do it. And trust you are doing the right thing. Don't get a 'know it all attitude,' like thinking the therapist can't do anything for you...(actually, you do it all yourself anyways, they are just there to guide you and help you learn to trust yourself...they aren't going to tell you what to do or think) It's kind of contradictory...but think about it...what causes your depression? Isn't it a whole lot of self-doubt?

huh well I dunno what these people are talking about, when I was depressed and didnt have anyone to talk to it wasnt self doubt that did it and I sure as hell didnt want to tell anyone I was going to therapy, it just sucked that no one would hang out with me, really if you want to find something to take your mind off it, read books. id come home from school with nothing to do and just read, it gets your mind off things it doesnt take a lot of work and fantasy books are a great way to get away from reality for a bit. give it a shot, best of luck.

Therapy. There is nothing wrong with seeking help, especially if you are having suicidal ideations. Get help, now, fast.