What should i do to keep my faith alive?even when i am down(:-(

I have been praying a lot...I long for God...I confessed every sin...I rebuked every evil spirits...I do my best to do what's right...I usually manage to screw up in some way but I'm really sorry...I want God's will and not mine completely...But tell...

me:

Why do a lot of negative things happen just when I'm about to go to church and it stops me from doing so.

Why are people mean to me for no reason.

Why is it when I try to be nice I look like a complete fool.

I can't sleep at night and it always ruins my daily devotional time with God.

Why I feel so sad inside.

Why I cry myself to sleep in the shower or on my bed.

Why all my friends aren't around.

Why I have no money

Why my little cousin has leukimia

Why I dropped out of Business School

Why I am ill and weak

Why my healthy fit body is now unable to gain a normal weight...people judge me as anorexic when I'm not...

Why my husband is unemployed

Why Im so lonely and helpless.

Why I feel God only works miracles for other people and not me.

What I'm trying to say is...I feel like a doormat you know...

I feel like I'm not worth God's time...and in a way I feel I
am not important enough for him to help me even if it's doing HIS will...and when he don't want to do that...Then what hope is left for me?

I feel like everything got taken away from me and I don't know what im doing wrong

I feel so ruined!!I love God but I feel so ruined!!!

I feel like that saying I'll be damned if I love him and I'll be damned if I don't

I just surrendered ...and cry myself to sleep...I feel like hope's died away.

Sometimes I wish I was dead.

I read your question and my heart longs to console you.. I hope this can help you.. One thing I've came to find out about Jesus is that he is bigger than this life, and he wants to prove it to us. But sometimes we we put all our focus and attention on our situation because that's all we can see.. But more and more, as we pursue him and struggle with God, we came to see that he really is bigger than all our problems. And at that moment when we really see that he is really bigger than this little life we have here that seems so big to us, when we really begin to see really how big he is, our mouths will open up in aw, and we will drop what ever we're holding on to.

Okay, but as for bad things in life, life struggle, actually you are completely right, we were not created to have to deal with the influence of death in our day to day life.. Think of the garden, it was a heavy burden on man kind when God punished us with death.. This means, while we are alive, we suffer pains and frustrations because of death ruling and reigning in this present age. So we see that death is the wrath of God because of the wickedness of man.. But thanks be to Jesus that now he shows us a new way to go. It is the way to experience eternal life in our day to day life. It is called the way of the cross. When we walk any other way, we experience so many burdens and hardships and we don't really know where we are going. But when we seek our shepherd Jesus, and pursue him and follow after him, we experience life together with him. Then we experience that action packed fulfilled life in him. We experience Miracles and one blessing after another. It's because when we take the way of the cross, we become like Jesus in his image and likeness. Once again we live a life like that in the Garden. Now it is true that this blessing is great, it's really natural that we experience this life but only when we die to our own ways and our own understanding. This is the hard part because our ways and understanding is really all we have.. So we should see that following Jesus is a teacher student kind of life where God teaches you awesome mighty things, but! But we have to let go of ourselves. Why? Because this current age is evil because of the sin and the influence of death.. Remember Jacob? He had the same problem you having.. His whole life he worked hard grabbing his life and securing his life so that he could live a blessed life. He even stole Gods blessing from his older brother.. But remember at the end of that story, God told him he was going to bless him... Just like he says to us, but God told him, but go back to the land of your father.. But the problem was that his whole old life was there and they where looking for him because he stole everything. But he could not trust himself anymore but just trust God even though he would probably lose all his possessions and even his life. Remember how he separated all his stuff to give to his older brother even though he was about to lose it all. Then it says, he went on the other side of the river and started wrestling with God. Literally a man came and wrestled him, and it says that it was God. This is really Christian life, Many times there is so many things we don't want to do and we don't want to go through, and we become like Jacob where we want to do whats right so we do what we're told, but then we go to that other side of the river and we wrestle with God. It says that the wrestles all day and night as God said to Jacob, LET GO OF ME!!! Then Jacob actually said to God, until you bless me, I will not give up. Man, Jacob was really determined. We should have Jacobs heart and wrestle with God. This is what God loved about Jacob. Even though it seemed like the whole world was against him, he never stopped fighting but struggled until he was blessed. Then God blessed him and called him Israel. Israel means 'He struggles with God. This was a great blessing.. Keep struggling with God and he will bless you and give you all the desires of your heart.. But you must FIGHT!

God loves you, just trust in him, give your life to him and let him deal with your issues and problems. sometimes its hard but you need to face that bad things happen to good people, my grandad was a really really strong christian and he sufferd a heasrt attack.. as long as you trust god fully, he will carry you through all the negative... keep your faith pllleaaassseee!!!

Thank you Blondie...(:-)

Well... you can choose what you want to believe, if you don't want to keep your faith don't... its completely up to you, I dont find that 'faith' comforts me at all... so.. I gave it up.
Its not 'God' or 'Faith' that will cheer you up when you are depressed, it is your friends and family, and yourself.

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A quote for you: This too, shall pass.

One of the things I discovered when I lost faith, was that faith itself was the source of much of my emotional angst. Wondering why god has allowed these things to happen, and why he doesn't provide any relief, only adds to the pain rather than alleviating it. Hope that your problems will be fixed miraculously only ensures that you are less likley to fix them yourself...and so they drag out.

Faith does not provide the emotional strength people claim it does, rather, it lets you down when you need it the most.

Sadly marianna, this is exactly what you are experiencing.

God is testing you. he has allowed satan to screw with your life (just like job). stay on the right path with god and everything will be fine

hun. When your a believer it will be harder when your not. the devil will do ALL HE can with his might ( which is weak compared to god loll) to take you apart to hurt u. cause thats what he does. hes not here to PLAY but TO HURT!! Hell make your life unfair hell let others hurt u, make you do un wisley decisions and all that to let you give up on god. but HAVE FAITH!!! defintion of faith means believeing the unseen. just believ in god. cause teh more you fall into problems the more it will help your relation with god. BACAUSE you CALL OUT TO HIM MORE you start to talkto him, ask him favores, and maybe do a commitment that you will change this or that about u. you know?? gods testing you just in order to pass have faith and believe he can heal, belive he can change and believe that this is not your home. this world is for the devil its just a practice world to prepare us for the real one :heaven (good thngs happen in this life) and hell(bad things that happen in this life). god will NEVER ignore u. when you say talk to me or somthin HE IS! just your not listinnig well. and maybe you can hear him because of sin thats blockin . so repent and mean it! and be wiser read proverbs it teaches you EVERYTHING! kinda loll it will help you and just try we all go through hard things but ull make it!
god bless ya and hope this helped!

Yes it did deep beauty thank YOu for all your support It means a lot to me (:-)

Are you sure the faith you are following is completely right for you? I am in no way implying that you should stop believing or whatever but if you have grown up as a christian how do you know thats the right faith for you? Personally I have tried Christianity and found it not to suit me so I am following a different path and now I am happier than I have been since I was little. It's just a suggestion.