.. what do you think.

well I really want to know who my real dad is
but I just can't bring myself to ask my mom.
I mean she was young when she had me and
then she got married to a different guy then
devorsted him and is now married to the devil
and made us move to he's...

home town which
is across the counrty and I feel like not happy
at all. but I always pretend I'am so people don't ask.
the devil and my mom always yell and I hate it!
but I don't want to make it harder for my sibs by
yelling too but I just don't know what to do.
I need some ideas of if I should try to get in touch with
my real dad or if thats a bad idea, I keep in touch with my other
step dad and my mom does not know. because I can't tell her that either
and she does not go out of her way and tell me but it's just so hard
for me to see girls and there dads since I don't have one. and my mom does
not give me that much attion any more so I feel lonley I don't know what stuff I
should do outside school so I'm not home.

I'm 14.
duh girl
and I just need help.
I have only told about 3
people 2 best friends
and a young womens leader

wow I think if you really feel like you need to meet your real dad then you should go for it but keep in mind that he's probably not going to be mr. perfect father who automatically loves you and wants you in his life
maybe before you try to find him you should find out the story behind him from your mom

I got the story from my first sted dad
he says when he found out about me
he denied I was he's baby.

Find your birth certificate, that always has the real father on it, if they were around for your birth. That could lead you to at least his name, then look him up starting in the city you were born. Then go from there. Good Luck!

I would try to talk to your mom first and gets his name and the story from her.

if you have any eleder or somewhat like granny etc. you should ask them or contact them...I hope your prblm ends soon...

ya I try to but chickin out..