Please help! does she love me, or hate me?

I've known this girl for more than 6 years. Our parents have known each other prior to us meeting, but we had NO IDEA. Anyway, we both transferred from different schools and met because we were in the same class. She started writing me love notes out of nowhere, and back then I was flattered because I never had that happen to me before. Anyway, she ended up showing all of her girl friends, and then I showed all of my guy friends. It became a big school thing and we completely embarassed ourselves. The next day, we said our sorries and we were fine and close again. We did EVERYTHING together, from walking to school together, to going out to the mall, and so forth.

Next, high school hit. I ended up ignoring her for about a year, because of something that happened between us (I don't remember exactly). We were always on and off because of people or issues. What do you expect? We didnt 'grow up' I guess. Anyway, grade 12 hit, and she approached my friend (we were hanging out), and then she tried to make conversation with me by asking if I was going to the prom. From then on we INSTANTLY got close again. She had a boyfriend at this time. I decided that it was time to tell her how I really felt about her, for all this time. I came out with it, and when she was trying to get me to tell her, it's like she already knew. Just by the way she was talking, I could tell. I don't know; it's weird. Anyway, she got me to talk with her for about 5 hours about the whole situation. I told her that I didn't want to pressure her or anything because she had a boyfriend and I respected that. She then said, 'dont worry about my situation... I really want to talk,' and she would email me a lot too and ask me to meet her so we could 'talk more'. If she never liked me at all, she could have ended it. I don't know why she proceeded.

She wanted to work with me at my job, so I got her in. Weird things started happening to us. We were in the same art class, because she wanted to be with me in at least one class. Then, another girl that likes me took the class. We were all at the same table. Every time the other girl would look at me, the girl I like would be like, don't look at her, dont talk to her. Not only that, but this other girl named Diane would come by right before the class starts (this is when me and the girl I like stopped talking). Diane would always be like ohhh my husband and just flirt. The girl would get up and call the girl a b*tch and slut and slam the door. I was shocked. Why would she care if another girl would flirt with me?

I AM NEVER GOING TO FORGET THIS: She told me that it was better for her boyfriend to find out that I liked her from us, rather than someone else. So, I thought she would tell him anyway, so I told her that she could tell him. She did, but then me and him got into an argument online like a week later. I felt so bad because he said he was going to leave her because of me. I called her right away and told her everything that happened. Because I felt so guilty, she told me that 'if anything ever happened to you I would kill myself.' That kind of made me think.

In front of him, online, she would tell me she wants the emails to stop, the phone to stop ringing, etc. I told her to tell me to my face that she wanted nothing to do with me. She said no, in front of him. The next day at work, she was smiling and everything. When I look into her eyes, something about them smile, but she has a straight face. It's hard to explain. She told me if it meant losing him, she didn't want to talk to me.

The hardest part about all this is that she told me that I would never lose her, and that 'my emotions and feelings are everywhere.' She didn't tell me if she likes me or not. Every time I approach her, or 'run' after her, it's like she wants to talk, but won't show it. I see this sparkle in her eye and it's such a warm feeling.

At work and school, this year, she ALWAYS stared at me when she thought I didn't pay attention. People would tell me, and sometimes I would notice it. I don't understand. Even at work one time, this lady came up to me and was like... she was looking at you as if she wanted to know what you were thinking. I'm confused.

Even at school, she was SOOO FOCUSED. I thought that was weird as hell, because she would sit in her own corner and study in the cafateria. That wasn't like her at all. I don't know what's going on, but I don't want to lose her, period.

Anyway, at work, I wrote her an email, telling her to stay out of my life, because of something stupid she did at work. The NEXT DAY, I found out she booked a month off work because of school, supposedly. After that month passed, they never heard from her again. I was TORN INTO PIECES. I didn't want her to leave. A guy told me that she was acting very weird the last few weeks she was there.

I just recently found out that her boyfriend NEVER liked me in high school, because he was jealous of me. WHY?!?!!? WHY ME?!?! Not only that, but I found out they broke up, yet her best friend always tells me she loves him and that shes with him and everything. I don't get what they're trying to do.

There's a lot more to this. I'm very confused and don't know what to do. I don't want to lose her, and I want her in my life, long-term. PLEASE HELP ME OUT EVERYONE!!!

Just follow your heart

It seems like this girl doesn't really seem to know what she wants. Do you still ever see her? If she's totally out of your life now, ask her best friend to help you out.

Go to this girl and tell her how sorry you are for what you said. If she doesn't come to you after that, I don't think she's worth it.

I have this childhood friend who treats me like crap, but I love him. I know he's not worth it, but I can't let him go. I keep thinking of how he used to be, and keep hoping he's going to treat me like that again someday.

Face it. This girl is hurting you, baby.

No, I don't see her, because she's going to university next year. She thinks I'm going there too. It's weird because she used to always tell me stories about how her dad used to follow her mom but she didn't want him, but they still ended up together.

No, I don't see her because she's going to university next year. I still see her best friend though. She's my only connection to the girl I want. This whole situation is weird... I mean, she used to always tell me how her mom didn't want her dad, and her dad used to run after her mom but that they still ended up together. Maybe history is repeating itself?

ok well it seems to me that this girl cant make up her mind. I think that she loves you but likes her boyfriend. She is probally just as torn as you are. Let me ask you this if she didnt love you then why did she take your art class or get the same job as you or even leave after that email. another thing that I noticed was that you said she didnt like you talking to that tother girl in your art class, she was tring to keep you on a short leash and maybe that is what he boyfriend is doing to her. you are in a tough position and im A LOT YOUNGER THAN you but I hope that you still take some of my advice and that it makes you feel better.

shes not dead rite? you said they never heard from her agian. and dude she totally likes you. is it a possibility that her boyfriend was abusive or violent in any way and she was scared what would hapn to you or herself if she broke up with him and went out with you. you should ask her.

ok I really think she likes you but she dosnt want to show it. just like you she is afraid to let her true feeling out. its hard sometimes and her friend that said she loves that other guy is probly not the truth she probly likes you and the only reason she left was she proly felt her heart riped open like you did she is thinkin the same way you r

trust me she loves you. the only reason she would call that girl those things is because she jeoulus and doesn't want compition. get her email adress or her sn from her friend. email her or IM her. become friends agian but keep it slow you dont want to make things flare up agian. let her get over her boyfriend then try agian. say 'look, I really love you and I want to make you a part of my long time life. I understand we've had some bumpy times but please give me a chance.'

trust me every girl wants to here something like that.

woah. long thing you wrote there. haha. no offense, but I didn't read the whole thing so this may not help too much but any way I'll give it a shot. I'd just say follow your heart boii! if you like her, tell her. whats the worst that'll happen? I mean, your not in middle school any more. (haha. I still am!!) so it's not like everyone will be making fun of you. just do what you think is right. good luck! =]

its sounds like she really really likes you! But afarid to show it beacuse she has a boyfirend but woundnt breakup with hime beacuse she likes him to!!

ok what about us

this me I think she triing to make you so jals that she wats to go with him