My therapist denies diagnosing me with depression

I feel lethargic, hopeless, worthless, lonely, fatigued, empty and just plain awful.

My therapist denies ever have diagnosing me with depression, and claims she diagnosed me solely with an anxiety disorder. fair enough. I have all the symptoms of...

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ok fine

but she told me the first time I went that I had both an anxiety disorder and major depression... which I have the symptoms and warning signs of.

My mom refuses to put me on antidepressants for fear they'll make me more suicidal than I already am.

I need help but my therapist denies I have depression and I cant keep feeling like this.

please, what should I do?

How long have you been this way? If it's lasted longer than a few years, it could be dysthymia, or if you're feeling suicidal, major depression. But how could she tell you one thing and jump to a different conclusion? Sounds like she's covering her a** for some screw--up in your diagnosis.

get a second opinion by another therapist or a doctor
because clearly your not getting the answeres you need from your current one

You need to see a psychiatrist to straighten it out whether you need any medications (you can tell your mother you'd like anti-anxiety medications, and then let the psychiatrist decide what medications you really need) and your therapist seems a little messed up... diagnoses change, they're not fixed in stone... it's not like a medical thing where there's a clear cut answer... and your mother shouldnt be making a decision like this... she's not medically trained to know whether antidepressants will make you suicidal (btw, if you're suicidal and your therapist hasnt diagnosed you with some kind of depression, go see a new therapist).