How can I stop my guilt following my dad's death?

before some two years my dad died,and I feel like it was my fault,because I wished he would be dead and in same evening when I wished he would be dead ,it did happened ,my dad didn't came home because someone drove over him.I know it sounds strange,but it happened...since my father died I have been cutting myself and wanting to be bulimic,because I hate myself..I feel fat,ugly,I want to be size zero.and people looking at my scares thinking that aim a weirdo...what should I do to get past my guilt?

Dear estrella,
First of all do you think you are so powerful that you can wish something to happen and it happens? Are you really that special? No, of course you're not. You can't wish for things and they happen...we would send you to a lab and have you tested as our defence. To get past this guilt you need counselling ASAP. Again you're not too special for counselling are you? We all loose someone in our lives but we all don't cut or become bulimic...so you need help like all of us do from time to time. Remember we are mere mortals and wishing thing can't make is so...
Sue...good luck

Hey girl,
Everything happens for a reason...Just please dont keep hurting yourself over it. I know that it is a very hard thing to deal with and it crosses your mind everyday...but you just got to try to find something that will keep you busy and try to keep it off of your mind. I dont believe that it is your fault that he got killed. If any of this does not help, than you should go get some help or try to get on some kind of depression medicine. Believe me...it will help you.
I hope this helps hunny...just try to hang in there, and please dont hurt yourself any more...

I'm sorry what happen.& It's not your fault.I know how you feel.But god haves him in a safe place.you can look up in the sky.&he will be there by your side matter what.even you cant see him.but he can see you.so dont be worrie he will always be there.by rebecca cena.john cena grilfriend. you take cear.

not your fault...u will sad because you love your daddy...dont think too much..and be a good gal in your dad heart