Long distance relationship

Well I#039;m 13 years old and this summer I went to my mom#039;s country Nicaragua. I met this guy there he#039;s only 14 and I started to have feelings for him. As a result we ended up as boy/girlfriend. And when I had to return to the United States...

we started having a long distance relationship. But the fact and problem is that my mom never found out that I was his girlfriend because she doesn#039;t let me have boyfriends. Anywayz my mom never found out and hope never will. I was going to go to Nicaragua again in December to visit him I told my mom I want to go to see my family. Well my mom doesn#039;t let me go by myself she#039;s afraid that I#039;m going to go do something bad like have sex (she#039;s so ridiculous)!! Anyhow my aunt is going to Nicaragua in December and the only way that my mom will let me go is if my aunt takes me with her. But then my aunt said okay she#039;ll take me but I had to promise her I wasn#039;t going to do anyhting bad. Of course I did promise her, but then another aunt in Nicaragua knows about me liking and having a boyfriend and Nicaragua so she#039;s trying to convince the aunt thats taking me to Nicaragua not to take me. Because she said if something happens to me is going to be her responsibility and now my aunt is doubting on taking me, also I had a fight with my dad and now he#039;s mad at me and he#039;s the one who is going to buy me the ticket to go. And without him talking to me everything complicates even more. The thing is that he can#039;t even come to visit me because he can#039;t get out of his country he isn#039;t a resident and he doesn#039;t have Visa either. So like I was saying everything is becoming impossible for me and so tonight I called him and decided to end things with him and I feel so sad because I feel that I love him. and for the first time today he told me he loved me just when I had told him to end things here because I wasn#039;t going to be able to go and that broke my heart and he started to cry and everything. what should I do should I try my best to go? SHould I keep my faith?? Or should I kill this love (which I can#039;t)?

this is me giving advice to myself, i am the most ridiculous person ever!!!! I mean he is so stupid how could i ever thought that i loved him he is a total jerk i mean hello GIRL wake up don#039;t be stupid! Liven urself up! C#039;mon girl wake up. The guy u really want is right under ur nose!! ;-)