Im tired of this life i live

I'm about to be 17 years old.I've been getting into a lot of trouble for about 2 years now,because im in this gang.I dont like it at all because all we do is sit around and smoke a lot of weed and talk crapto everybody.weeell all this crap talking is...

catching up on me and I was usually the one to say I dont know if we should do this.I know I sound like a whimp but gangs were never that appealing to me and im only in one because I was kicked out for a long time and I stayed at a friends house which turned out to be in one so I got in.
Well flash forward now,im scared to leave my house(I was welcomed home again)and I am always thinking that somebodys out to get me.just thinking about walking around to get some air seems like a big task to me and I about break down in a panic attack.I was jumped by a lot of gangmembers and they knocked my tooth and everything and when they walked away they said next time we'll have guns.and I know they will because theres a lot of shootings around here.I just want my life back and it seems impossible,I stopped hangin with my gang because thay were fake as hell and just about talkin crap,kind of like they had a death wish ya know.well I kind of rambled but basically im just scared and I feel different from how I use to,I dont like to hang with my old frinds because I have to walk and I dont have a car and im not in school.my life is so screwed up and I dont know where to start to get it back
Please help if you have any advice

P.s I cant goto the police because they all know me by name and face and would lock me up before helping me

If you aren't willing to go to your local police - the only thing I can tell you is that you need to move away. Although, going to the police, the most likely would not just lock you up, if you are willing to cooperate with them and put some people away. It's your decision and a sticky place you got yourself into here - the best things I can think of is police or move.

The police would NOT lock you up. If they knew you by name and face and had reason to lock you up, they would have made a warrant and pulled you out of your home. Go to them, they can help you. Nobody wants to die in the streets, so get your life on track and get help. There is counseling for people in your situation, you just need to go to PD. Cops are good people, even though they might seem to be on the other side most of the time!

See I want to move but im livin off my deciest dads Social Security check so I'm stuck in those places they call the projects.
where are some places where theres cheap rent or rent that goes by your income.
I live in Indiana

Go to the cops. They are not bad people like you seem to think. If you go to them and tell them you are scared for your life and you need help, they will help you.

I don't know I was hoping for another way besides going to them.This cop and his gang unit is always watching me so thats why I dont like them,They sit around my house and watch it.I was pulled over last week and questioned for something bad that happend and now theyre trying to blame it on me and that is why I dont want to talk to them because the police here are crooked,I don't know if you ever met a crooked cop but theyre not that good

your probably thinkin this guys an idiot but I just want to find a different way,everything im saying is 100% true,thats why im asking if anybody knows any other places around Indiana that go by your income or low rent or something

You made the choice to get in, you can make it to get out - sitting around, just smoking weed will get you nowhere on the road to success - it's a dead end road - look around - there's got to be someone or a community service to help you straighten out your life - take things 1 step at a time...I wish you the very best !!