Am i anorexic and bulimic?

Ok, I am 18 years old and have always felt like I was fat. I may not look it to other people, but I always feel fat. Lately, after studying anorexia and bulimia nervosa, I have started questioning whether I want to be anorexic or bulimic...or if I...

already am.

I believe right now I weigh about 103 pounds and im 5'3 tall. Granted the healthy weight for someone my height is 115 pounds...but I feel fat already. I have been skipping meals...literally skipping and not even looking back. I might eat one meal a day. Sometimes, when I do eat, I throw it back up.

I have this urge to weigh less than I do since I am a runner and I want to be skinny. got any ideas?

Firstly, you certainly do not look fat, nor do you need to loose any weight. There are many girls out there that would kill to have your body - so why try and change it?

Runners need stamina and energy, so by not eating you're not going to be able to get either of those, and so you won't do well at running. Just because you feel fat doesn't mean you are - it could just be in your mind, and doing something to your body for something that doesn't actually exist is silly, if not dangerous. It does sound like you have a problem, and I suggest you seek help for your eating problems. If you want to talk about it, I'm only a funmail away.