I feel like a little kid

a few months ago, I noticed I was getting a cavity, so I wanted to get it filled... and I've gotten dozens of cavities filled, so my mum made the appointment and I went. I havent gotten I cavity filled in years, all they did then was stick a light in my mouth, and the cavity was gone... well at least it didnt hurt anymore.

anyways

I went, he took an x ray, and I had 2 cavities. the next thing I know, hes filling up a syringe to numb my mouth...

and I started getting scared

and he went to stick it in my mouth... and im terrified of needles. and I started tearing up and shaking... and the nurse told me to hold her hand and close my eyes, but it didnt help, and he had the thingy in my mouth to hold it open and I started screaming because I hate needles and it tured into a full out crying, and I was crying my eyes out.

and he stopped. and said 'Your 14 years old! you need to grow up! go ahead and let your teeth rot out then, im not doing anything!'

and I walked out...

and my mum told me I needed to grow up. its just a needle. it only hurts for a second.

But I'm not like a little kid hiding behind there mum when they get a booster shot.

I think I have a phobia. I cant stand needles... and now my teeth really hurt... and my mum wont take me to a speacialist to have em knock me out and drill my teeth... she refuses. and says im going to have to grow up and take the damn needle... I really cant tho.. im terrified...

am I stupid for being afraid of needles?
like a little kid is?

I mean... I still havent gotten my booster shot to be allowed in high school... I cant handle needles...

am I dumb?

no you are not dumb
you are just scared of needles!!! so am I but your going to have to stand up to them
sooner or later!!! I am scared of them to but when I go to my dentist I bring my music and head phones and listen to music while they are fixing my teeth!!!
most people are scared !!!

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I think you need to change dentists. I think, nowadays, most dentists use a numbing agent on your gums so that you don't even feel the needle much if at all.

thats totally inapropriate what your dentist said, as for your mom, tell her you need to get your teeth fixed, and you really hate needles.

my mum doesnt have 400 bucks...

and my dentist has always been mean

Phobias are by definition irrational fears. There is no way to reason your way through not being afraid of needles if you have a true phobia. Having a phobia does not mean that you are weak or immature, it is a psychological problem that can not be overcome without work. You need to find a more patient and sympathetic dentist.