How to come clean about rape?

Im new to this thing, and was wondering if I could just get some answers. Possibly from people who have been through the same kinda thing...
Im sixteen years old, at the age of about 8 I hadthe worst day of my life! I was sexually abused by my grandad....

I dont know if you could class it as rape?
Ever since that day I've regretted not telling anyone barr two of my closest friends. I feel ashamed, asif it was my fault. Although to be honest I didnt really know right from wrong. I also didnt want 2be told off as a child as my mum was short tempered. Knowing that this sort of thing had happened before to others, I still lied. By the same person its happened 2 two of my cousins an my half sister. Noone believes them! Noone knos the truth, but I do. :'(
Seein as the important things in my life are over now, for example gcse's etc, I decided the other day 2write my mum a letter explaining the situation and how im feeling. I was thinking of leaving it on the sofa whilst shes at work then heading off a few miles?? I just dont want her 2be angry with me, or disown me. Knowing that my grandad lives on the same street!!

Another thing... I didnt tell anyone, as I've already said, but to keep it secret from others, I was just as bad as him and still visited. And I still do!! Nothing happens now im older but it still hurts. I've been breaking things in his house, putting bleach on stuff. I want revenge. But im thinking more along the lines of harming him. I know its wrong even after what he done, but I cant help it.

Please someone, what am I 2do about the whole situation? X

You really need to talk to someone about this, I'm sure your mum won't be angry with you, as you have done absolutely nothing wrong, your grandad is in the wrong and something needs to be done about it. It's ok to want revenge but please don't do anything drastic which will end you up in trouble. a letter to your mum is a good idea, if you're uncomfortable with telling her in person, but dont go to far, once she knows let her come to you and then chat about it. I'm sure she'll know exactly what to do and really help you. x

your not the only one who has gone through the same thing ...I WAS ALSO SEXUALY ABUSED by my uncle when I was 8 years old my mom worked full time at a casino ..so she was hardly at home ..I felt so bad I was ashamed to let my mother know.. a few months after that ..when I did tell my mom she didn't believe me at all ..because he was her brother!!! but I got him to go to jail and told my story to many girls who were going through the same thing ...my family still kinda talks behind my back but ..but I dont care because I knew I had to open up and say something or I would of been in depression ...so my best advise is to talk to someone you trust and that will believe you ..

thanks girls, honestly you've helped the situation (: I've gotta get closure an do somethin about it soon

im in the same boat. I was sexually abused by my grandad at 5. and I havent told a soul. I still talk to him. if I told my mom shed be soo mad at me. my advice is talk to a close friend or counselor. if you have to take someone with you and tell him what he did to you and make him tell you why. I know it sounds out of line but it will help.

its just so hard. I've told a few mates but they dont understand in the slightest