How do I accept what happened in the past?

My boyfriend already nows this but I went to a party and I was raped and I ended up geting pregnet but I lost the baby and I think that is stoping me from having sex with him, how do I take care of that in my mind that he (my boyfriend) is here to protect me not do what someother guy took advantage of?

you should talk to a rape councellor, usually it's the only way to help you get over it..

Have you told anyone close to you (an adult, teacher, etc.) about your rape? You need to report it to the police. It takes time, trust me. Don't rush anything with your boyfriend and make sure that he knows your boundaries. Go to counseling to help you through these hard times and it gives you someone to talk to. I know it's hard right now but keep your head up.

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I did tell the police but since there was drinking there (1 bottle of vodka) they coould not do anything. He nows but I dont want it to get inbettween are realtionship

you need to find a lawyer then. alcohol or not, it's rape. Rape is a very traumatic event, you should seek professional help. Don't go through it alone.

xox
Sika