Ex fiance and letting go

My fiance and I Were supposed to get married on Aug 16, 2008. I had a problem with a depersonalization disorder that caused me to lose reality for several months prior to the wedding. I did some things that I had no control over.. One being that my...

fiance and I agreed to create a joint slush fund bank account. I moved money from her bank account and my account into that account. the funds were spent on both of us... the only problem was that I had authorization to pay her bills electrroncially but not put checks into that slush fund account. I did this for over 6 months and moved about $7200.00 from her account and $15000.oo from my account. I guess we were living well. During that time I lost my job whiich I made $83K... I didn;t tell my fiance that I had lost it. I also had a software company that went belly up during that time frame. so I was not in a good place psychologically. The worst of it was that I didn't show up for the rehersal and dinner the night before the wedding nor had I paid for all of the wedding acttivities such as the caterer, the pholtographer (deposits had been paid) etc. My fiance and her father expected me to pay for this big church wedding.
I had lost it the night before the wedding... the DPD disorder along with depression and a diabetic sugar high took me out of control I went into a complete different state of mind. The worst of it all the next day my fianace had me charged with theft and id theft and I was arrested for that and have been convicted for that. I accepted the criminal charges with a know concern that of the DPD problem. I am receviing counseling for it now and it is curable.

but, she had me convicted. she has a great amount of fear that I am going to do something to her and I do not want to do that., In fact I want us to be married, but she says she cannot and will not trust me anymore.

My question is ... if someone has a diagnosis of a mental problem that is curable did somethings that He shouldn't have done. Moving the funds and not showing up for the rehersal. Even though she knows that he still wants to be married. Why do you think she alienated him.? she has said alll love is gone and all care is goine. He had no control over what happened. I thought marriage was for richer or poor, in sickness and in health stuff . Am I to much of a traditionalist to belleve that I would have expected that?
the crazy thing is she still has about $25K of my personal belongings in her houe and keeps telling me that she will give it back to me... to date she hasn't.
what do you all think?

One question to help it why are you saying me and then saying him your talking about a few different people...?

your answer is its all about me.

Im just a lil confused about your question, But I may be able to help because my boyfriend was just diagnosed with bipolar he did a lot of crazy things to but now that hes on the right meds hes able to think clearly.

I think he was speaking in 3rd person. I'm sorry to say, but the honest truth is that you need to move on and let those things go. Even the material stuff. It's not worth all the heartache. If you have a problem then you'll be aware of it in the future and do different. Hopefully better.

she does not believe that I have this disorder I am fine now but she says that I had to know what I was doing. this disorder cause you to have a continuous out of body experience for long periods of time and you will do things that you normally do not do, the doctors have even told her... but she does not even accept his diagnosis.
I am very confused and do not know what to do. I feel like she is treating me as a leper and is runnig scared. How do I help her to understand what is going on, and how to bring us back together