How to fix my broken heart from not being able to carry a child?

Okay, here is the problem. I have been pregnant 3 times. Twice with singles, and once with twins. I can not carry them past 8 weeeks, which really breaks my heart. More so.. I want to make a real family with my husband. I have ablood clotting disorder,...

which kills the baby early in pregnancy. I do not have 30,000 dollars for an adoption, I have even went into foster care. But is not filling to large whole in my heart, of wanting a bundle of joy in my arms to watch grow up, and raise. If anyone has had problems like mine or could help me out. Please let me know.

signed-
Broken Hearted

My mom has a friend named keisha that has the same problem and she gets up 2 a certain amount of months an then lose the baby every time but now she no that she cant have kids so she takes up time with other people kids so keep yo head up baby girl and dont worry bout a thing and let god do the work

I am male, and I may not be able to produce kids. I know that's not the same but its close. You may look into having, and I forget what its called, but its were you ask some one else to carry the baby for you. You can even do artificial insemination, with your hubbys sperm. A know people do do this. But it can have problems were the women that carries the baby after does not want to give it up, so when looking for some one to ask, make sure you trust them very much, and make sure at this time in there life they can easily carry a baby but do not want children ether yet or right now. A lot of people do not like doing this, but its a good idea to me.