What will happen to my future if I develop anorexia?

Now that I have decided to try and develop Anorexia Nervosa, I am a little apprehensive about the future. If I do end up getting this disease, what will happen to my family, friends, or to Ant (boyfriend)? I am also excited, I have always wanted to understand the feeling of total repulsion towards your own body, and now, I may have the chance. This is going to be extremely difficult, I love eating, but as it was for Catherine, its mind over matter. I suppose my initial enthusiasm came from reading Catherine by Maureen Dunbar, it has intensified my need / want to learn all I can about the disease. Its going to be extremely scary, as well as difficult, what if, once I have the disease, I can not get rid of it, what if I die? To be honest, I’m not scared of dying, I just don’t want to leave my loved ones, they mean the world to me. I have done a lot of research about it, and I know all the risks. What I am asking for, I supose, is how do I go about it? Is it gradule, or straight off? My want / need for this isnt fueled by me thinking I am fat, because I am not, I am actually quite skinny. I just want to know the feelings. Please, just tell me how. I dont need lectures about how I am stupid to do it.. etc.

I can't tell if you're being serious or sarcastic.

If your goal is to know how an anorexic feels, wouldn't it be easier to just imagine it?

You already know it's stupid - but like all of us in life you're free to be - damages your body organs and can be fatal - one great future, huh !

Well, though you may feel better as an anorexic, you can develop serious problems. Anorexia Nervosa affects every part of your body. My best friend is anorexic. For her it wasn't very gradual. It was one week she was healthy, and the next, you could see every rib and bone in her body. It depends on the person. My best friend has been anorexic for a year. She was a fantastic dancer, and now she can't dance anymore. She has heart problems. If she dances, she could die because her heart could fail. It's a deadly disease. You need to get help to discuss these problems and so you don't get too far into the disease.

death

I suppose, yes, it would be easier, but then I still wouldn't know how it feels. I have thought better of trying to get such a disease, though. Now that I think about it, it would be too hard to get in and out of it. So thanks everyone. You've helped.

I have losted 5 friend because they thought it would be fun too

it is not fun
NOT AT ALL!!!
I hjad it for 3 years
I experimented
now I dont
just fast for 1 day hear or there and feel the hunger pain people fight every day
or be 1 but be anemorexic where you eat about 1500 calories a day but you constantly exercise nonstop