what does all this mean??

So all I want to know is why is it that when you catch feelings for somebody, they never feel the same way about you…

I have known this guy for a very long time and just recently I have realized how much I like him. I mean we chill together and everything but that’s not enough. I want to be with this man more then words can explain.

The thing about this is that I feel like I will never be good enough for him. I’ve tried to lose weight so he will be more attracted to me and when I want to chill with him, I pay one of my friends a lot of money to go pick him up and it’s like through all this, he don’t feel the same way about me that I do about him. I want to be with him with every fiber of my being and I pray every night that when I wake up the next day that maybe just maybe things will be different and he will realize that nobody could ever possibly love him more then I do.

Then I look at myself like there’s something wrong with me that turns him away from me. I would give or do absolutely anything to be him wifey. I want him to understand that I have my flaws and I am well aware of it. When we sit and watch a movie and he holds me or holds my hand in the car on the way to take him home, I feel like the most special person in the world. Even when he shows me the littlest bit of affect, whether it’s a hug or a kiss on the cheek, my heart melts like ice on a hot summer’s day. I know that he completes me in every way a man can complete a woman.

How long is it going to take for him to realize this?

How long do I have to wait?

He says to give it time and see where things go but how much time does he need? It’s like he’s right in front of me and I can’t touch him. He’s a centimeter’s reach away and I can’t touch him. I think that he’s out of my league.

I need advice…