What else can I do?

We spent a couple of months together already, I love her, she loves me. and I started to feel that everything is going too fast, (like her mom told me) I mean, I would like to see her everyday, but she’s in high school, and I just graduate from college and looking for a job.

However, I do find that our family background are similar in an extremely shocking way: same parents and sibling situation, (it goes into the roles we played in our family) we both had thought about suicide as an easy way out (what I am saying is that our understanding of the depth of life are at the same level, and we picked ourselves up from scratch.) Even thou I knew one will always find someone else similar in a way.

We both can find someone else easily, because we could not careless if we are just lonely, and even thou it maybe painful to do so.

We had a conversation today, I made up my mind about cool things down, she can tell right away. I didn’t say much, but by the way she tried to block me out during the conversation I can tell that she received my message.

She never wants to take any initiative during our relationship, why is that?

I think its just a matter of time now, I do care for her, but I guess it will not be the same anymore.

I wish I can provide more in information but I guess I am limited in expressing though words and sentences.

She told me that it does me no good to care about her just because I know her.

I switched myself to total rational because my emotions can’t take it anymore.

I think I will try to block her out completely before I break down.

Any advice would be helpful besides letting the time heal the wound, and sleeping with as many people as possible