Any ideas or motivation tips?

Sounds pretty much like my story, I messed up my life pretty bad through social anxiety. It wasn’t til I was 22 that I went back to university. So I wouldn’t worry too much, if you got your A levels and your’e just deciding on a course you’re still in a pretty good position. What subjects did you do at college? If you’re not wanting to go to university I would just try and find a job and just settle into that for the next 6 months, once you have a bit more experience it might give you an idea where you want to go in life. Did you not get one of those career advice things, they have those connexions things that you can use when you’re still 19 I think. If you want to go to university but don’t feel you can this year, I would just work towards that as a goal for next year. Think what you need to do, the issues you need to address to achieve it, and then do all you need to do to get yourself ready. Get yourself out there trying new things, which should help with your confidence and social anxiety. Could be volunteering or trying out new hobbies. Again think what you want to do at uni, get advice. Again obviously in an ideal world what you do at uni would be used for what you do in a job, but that doesn’t often reflect reality. A lot of people go to uni and still end up doing something completely different. Uni is also about the education and other skills that you develop, and the experiences and social life. Keep yourself focused but don’t get too disheartened, from what I can gather you have a lot to be positive about.