Where to get information about anorexia for a report?

Hi. I was never diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa, but I have suffered from it for two years since I was 12 years old. I have never told anybody, but I think that people are starting to guess my problem now, although on the whole I wouldnt say that it’s hard to hide it at first. Many Anorexics don’t understand where their problem started and WHY, but my reason for the start of this stupid illness is very clear to me: Two years ago i have lost a lot of weight (due to lot of exercise when I joined a basketball team) and only then boys started to notice me, a lot more people started to talk to me and I figured out that if I lost more weight even more people would be my friends, but if I gained weight I would loose my friends. This reason which started it off, isn’t what keeps me going anymore, now I starve myself automatically, just because I am (or I think I am) fat. At the age of 12 I weighted 56kg, now I weight 48kg (and I have probably grown as well). I would never wish this illness on ANYONE, it is a LIVING NIGHTMARE, that nobody understands. I’m always depressed, I never look forward to anything, I HATE school. I’m shy in classes and get easily embarassed, which doesn’t help much with my grades. Sometimes I don’t eat for as long as a week, sometimes I eat ‘a lot’ and then throw it up. Throwing up is the WORST feeling in my life. I hate it. Sometimes I think about suicide. That’s how far this illness got me. I HATE it.

And guess what’s the worst part of it?

You can’t prevent it. It doesn’t matter if you tell a normal healthy girl not to be anorexic. If she starts to think she is fat or ugly, there’s no way to stop. Or everybody might always say she is beautiful and skinny, and then she might get scared: what if she gains weight??? and in an attempt to stay the same weight, she starts loosing it…

People die from this illness. And who knows maybe I’ll be one of them.