Whats wrong with me?

Lately, or as far as I can remember... I've been feeling really different..
a lot of the time, sad, depressed, scared of the future, guilt.. and sometimes even why I am living?
I've been using substances and alchohol whenever I can to kind of forget the pain.. and sometiems I dont even know why im upset.. its like I've forgotten..

Am I depressed? Am I suffering from something?
Please help. x

that sounds exactly like what my mam and sister went through..
and they ended up as depressed...I think you need to see a doctor to make sure.and to prescribe something..if you need it..?

I think you just...need to go out and do something fun...without alcohol...go to a movie...I dont know...you sure sound lonely...ditch loneliness and see friends...its a lot more fun...

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