Why am I changing?

I haven't been myself lately, me and my ex have been separated for a couple of months after 2 years. I have lost complete control of my life, my parents are splitting. my mom is upset with me not being able to tell her whats going on. after pledging to...

myself that I would never smoke, I've smoked weed the past two weekends. im scared of changing but I dont want to admit I need help. what do I do?

LISTEN HONEY DONT GET DEPRESSED OVER A GUY CAUSE ALL THERE OUT FOR IS TO DESTROY YOUR LIFE AND IF YOU LET THEM THATS WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN. I AM SURE YOUR A BEAUTIFUL GIRL POTS NOT GOOD FOR YOU AT ALL AND YOUR GOING TO GET YOUR SELF ADDITED TO IT AND YOU DONT WANT TO DO THAT. THERE IS SO MANY DRUGS AND POT IS TAKING OVER THE WORLD AND YOU DONT NEED THAT LIFE IS GREAT BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO PEOPLE FOR A REASON AND ONLY GOD KNOWS SO PLEASE GET YOUR LIFE TOGEATHER... IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK WITH I AM HERE OK. EMAIL ME BACK.

Wow... kathyrh69 needs to read better...