I broke up with my first true love the other day

okay so I broke up with my first true love the other day, and im trying so hard to move on, like I went over to a friends house the next night. both people that I was chilling with were guys, so it made it easy to not get onto the subject of boys (which is what usually happens when im with my friends that are girls) so yeah im trying to get over him, and I didnt break up with him becasue I didnt lovehim. I broke up with him because of the constant fighting, for such a long time people have told me to get out before it got to hard, get out before it gets to hard get out get out!! so finally I did. he would always put me down for anything that I did wrong, and I ALWAYS took the blame, I just got sick of it... but like now im wondering if I should totally move on, like not even talk to him at all? or if I should try to be friends with him (I really really just want him in my life) I want the boy that once made me feel like when I was holding him I was holding the entier world to be part of my life again. will it be possible to still be friends with him with out totally hating myself for breaking up with him (despipe all the fights?)or am I better off just staying outta his life, let him move on and hope that with time I can too?

please dont give me useless advice like saying that I shouldnt have broken up with him in the first place, unless your telling me to get back together with him???

im really stuck on this one, and get it off of my mind, pleas ehelp me!!!

Well whenever I first got with my wife I was a big as*h*le but I did love her. I pretty much did the same things he did to you on a regular but one day something hit me and I realized that I was treating her so bad. I think you should talk to him about it(I'm not saying get back together). Just talk to him for a whole minute, it might calm you down because right now you can't get over him because there's nothing to get over. You're confused and you can't just get over confusion becuase you need an answer. Talk to him and make yourself feel better about the decision you made. Even if the conversation turns sour at least you have some closure.

Its going to be hard leaving someone you love very much.
But you also need to stop and look at all the reasons WHY you left him,and remind yourself WHY he wasnt good enough.
If he didnt treat you the way you deserve to be treated,then he didnt deserve you anyway.

You're really young to claim to have been with your 'first true love'. So, we're going to skip over that right now. You were right to dump him if he treated you like that. When I was your age, I had a boyfriend (everyone your age thinks they love their boyfriend, when you get older you will laugh) and he did the SAME THING. I dumped him, and it just took a month and I was over him.

Everything will be fine. Stay home and watch tv and eat junk food for a few days, then plan a night out with friends or a sleepover, or a movie night or something. Do ANYTHING YOU CAN to get your mind off of him. He isn't worth thinking about, you need to move on with your life, and when you're older you will know you made the right choice. You deserve better!!!

How long were you two together?

look I know it sounds stupid and maybe It was (is??) but like I really think that I did love him (still do I think?) , and I think that he felt the same way, he told me that he did and all his friends would talk about the way that he would talk about me, and tell me how much he adored me and stuff yes im only like 14 and hes a little older, we only dated for about 5 months, and I know everyone reading this is juging me, what ever I dont even care. what I felt for him was deeper then anything else, things were always so complicated with us. besides our fights we both had other stuff going on family/school/friends ect.. idunno maybe this was stupid but now I cant stop crying over him.it is all the little things tho, not getting cute txts from him seeing him on msn and not talking to him. idunno maybe that wasnt love (now that I think about it) I really thought that it was tho, now im evenmore confused ughhh this sucks

Sometimes things just don't work out. I hate to say it but the only thing that will heal this is time, give it some. Everything will work out the way it's suppose to and you may even get back together one day when you grow up a little and there won't be as much fighting. Good Luck!

honey just move on everything will be fine. I know it hurts

you really need to find something to occupy your time. you deserve to be happy!