What to do?

I've been married for 12 years and together with my husband for 18 years. We have a wonderful family of two children. We have a very open relationship. Unfortunately his job has him on the road a lot. I hated it at first because he was always there...

at night but I've come to be comfortable with it. I have great friend and family support. But.. two years ago my best guy friend and I became closer and he is not single either. He was my first love and we have stayed friends over the years. He is my best guy friend. It started out as just talking but we have such a connection. It is not just physical! I just don't know what to do? I love both men. It is eating away at me. I know what I should do but when I see him I can't let him go.Help?

You need to find out whether or not your marriage to your husband is more important than seeing this other man. If The only thing that is wrong with your marraige is that your husband works a lot and has to be on the road, thats not a good enough excuse to be with your best friend. Have you tried talking to your husband about cutting back his hours, or finding another job?
If you really believe that your best friend would be with you and make you happy then go for it. If he's really the love of your life you should go for what you want. But do so after you tell your husband or after you get a divorce, because cheating is awful and takes away your dignity.

You need to figure out what is more important to you - your marriage or this guy. You said yourself that he is not single. It sounds to me like you are getting caught up in something that is going to leave you hurt on both ends.

You need to cut off all ties with this man, because things go to far and you loose everything. If you dont want to cut ties with him -then you need to leave your husband because I can only guess where this is heading and nobody deserves to be cheated on and have their spouse running around behind their back.