What to do if my mom hates me?

I think my mum hates me. here is list of things that make me get depressed. I mean is she even supposed to say or do any of these to her only daughter?!

I do well at school I get A*s and nothing below Cs.

She calls me fat all time

she shout at me for no reason

im not allowed to swear (even though my younger brother is)

im constantly grounded

when im not & I want to go out with friends I cant b/c she forces me to stay in

if I do go out I have to pay for it which I cant b/c I dont get allowance

when I do I have to spend it on stuff & then she shouts at me

I have counseller but it dont work b/c she twist things around to make it be my fault

she call me freak b/c I listen to j-rock

she doesnt support me drawing anime (even though im good at it)

she nicer to brother & does
anything for him even though he failing school

she say I should be girlier when I am. sure I may be visual kei but im not like my best friend who want sex change

she say I should be cleaning up all day b/c im a girl

I nice to her when she need it

she say my room not clean & it is (it annoy me)

she ignores my opinions

she dont let me have boyfriend

she dont let me drink so that

when I go to friends I drink & be sick b/c im not used to it

she even read my texts online!!

she hit me

she find cuts on my arm & when she ask why I did them I told her truth that she isnt fair to me.that she doesnt support me or build up my confidence like mothers supposed to do. she hit me after & bring dad up to hit me too. I forced door shut so they cant get me but he still did.
I dont know what I shoud do. I dont drink lot of alchol, just once every 2 month, I dont smoke / do drugs, im not failing school.
im only 15 and im still in high school for 3 month & im really depressed. I have nowhere else to go if I leave home. I've tried committing suicide before but I feel bad & cant go through with it. all the other sites havent helped and this is last resort

so please... help me...

any advice will do

I dont think your mom hates you...shes probably going through a phase perhaps...
how long has this been going on?
btw commiting suicide is not the answer! dont throw your life away because I'm sure you have so much to offer. if you believe in yourself then nothing else should matter.

why dont you try to confront her, or try going to therapy with the whole family. it might help.
if you have a close relative you get along with..then you could move out for awhile to see how it goes..

good luck =]

what a b*tch you should go to the police and I mean seriously go because then the truth will get out

Please please please dont do anything bad. Its not the answer. I really want to help you the best that I can.First off im so sorry to hear about your situation, I dont think it is fair...but unfortunatly its life. Dont feel like all this is your fault. Your mom might not know how to handle a teenager and thats why she treats you like this. I would not turn to drugs or alchol for the answer. Underage drinking is not the smartest choice even though it may seem like it. This is not going to do anything but make your mom mad. I understand why she would not like you to drink. I know you probably dont want to hear that but im sorry. I would try just to focus on something or set a goal for yourself to help you stay focused on other things rather than your family life. I dont know your mom or really anything about her but maybe this is the way she was raised and doesnt know any better. If you are being aboused I would say that its not very good to be living at home. Maybe you could find a family member that you could live with just for a month or two to see how things work out. I would also try to find someone that you are close with to talk to them about what is happening and if they know you really well, maybe they could give you better advice on what to do. I dont know if I helped any, but I hope so. Feel free to fun mail me any time, I would love to try to help more.

Welcome to my world... I am well familiar with the crazy mother phenomenon, but she loves you (yes I promise she does) even if sometimes she acts worse than your worst enemy...

The best way I dealt with mine was avoidance... I would be in my room as much as possible... I know it isnt the ideal solution, but you will graduate in a couple of years, then guess what? she cant tell you what to do anymore, and you can have a boyfriend, you can go out when you like for however long you like...

You also need to let go this idea of the perfect, supportive, sweet, doting mother. Some mothers just arent like that and instead of fighting the fact that you got a mother like yours, accept it... It took me a while to figure this out, but you cant change other people. You can only change yourself... You need to believe that you are not the fat, untidy (whatever else she calls you) person. You know yourself, and just because she is insulting you doesnt make it true. No it's not fair. And the last person that should be saying these things is your mother. And it is hurtful. But, she is who she is, and you cant change that. You need to remind yourself of your worth, and when she starts to get to you, go to a friend and have them remind you (over and over and over as many times as needed until you remember that this is not your problem it is your mother's problem)

Get a different therapist. If you are still suicidal and cutting and s/he is not helping then talk to someone else.

If you can convince your mother to try family councelling, I would go for it...

Well, first of all I have to say sorry 'cause my English. I'm not British nor American. I'm a Hungarian 18-year-old guy with the same problems:
-shouting at me all the time(my room is not cleaned, etc..)
-shouting at me because I'm not learning(I have only As, and a few Bs...)
and a lot more tipical things. Well, sometimes I would like to escape from this 'hell', but I think leaving home is not the solution. Just try to ignore her, close your room's door, turn the music on and put your headset on. And never answer to her when she is shouting...she will get bored after a while.
Yeah, it's a bit strange...18-year-old guy at home... but I'm still doing my studies, in Hungary you leave high school at the age of 18.
If your parents hit you, just shut the door and go to your granny and tell her/him what happened. Well my mom never hits me because she can't;p, but I hate those daily shouts...daily...in every hour.
After all when I go out I feel so sticky, I'm thinking about things like 'why I am here?'...'why haven't I borned somewhere else?'...'why should I listen her all the time'...'why I am still alive...?'
Well life is not a fair thing, believe me I understand you! My father left us when I was 1-year-old. Both of my granddads are dead. Died in the same months. I was shocked ...started smoking. My mom doesnt know that but sometimes I feel that I can't leave without it. When I'm upset or sad, I usually feel much better after a cig on the fresh air, at night. Life teaches you how to live, and it gives you a lot hard tumbler, and this helps you to be strong!
Be strong lady, everything has an end. Making it short is not the solution.
Farewell,
Zsolt

Well, first of all I have to say sorry 'cause my English. I'm not British nor American. I'm a Hungarian 18-year-old guy with the same problems:
-shouting at me all the time(my room is not cleaned, etc..)
-shouting at me because I'm not learning(I have only As, and a few Bs...)
and a lot more tipical things. Well, sometimes I would like to escape from this 'hell', but I think leaving home is not the solution. Just try to ignore her, close your room's door, turn the music on and put your headset on. And never answer to her when she is shouting...she will get bored after a while.
Yeah, it's a bit strange...18-year-old guy at home... but I'm still doing my studies, in Hungary you leave high school at the age of 18.
If your parents hit you, just shut the door and go to your granny and tell her/him what happened. Well my mom never hits me because she can't;p, but I hate those daily shouts...daily...in every hour.
After all when I go out I feel so sticky, I'm thinking about things like 'why I am here?'...'why haven't I borned somewhere else?'...'why should I listen her all the time'...'why I am still alive...?'
Well life is not a fair thing, believe me I understand you! My father left us when I was 1-year-old. Both of my granddads are dead. Died in the same months. I was shocked ...started smoking. My mom doesnt know that but sometimes I feel that I can't leave without it. When I'm upset or sad, I usually feel much better after a cig on the fresh air, at night. Life teaches you how to live, and it gives you a lot hard tumbler, and this helps you to be strong!
Be strong lady, everything has an end. Making it short is not the solution.
Farewell,
Zsolt

I went through a situation like yours once. I had decided to face my problem head on and realize suicide wasnt right and that cutting myself was doinh more damaged to me then anyone else. I had wrote a letter to my mom and dad explaining how I felt and why I felt that way. of course things have changed in my life, but occasionally she yells, but she doesnt hit me anymore and she tells me she loves me more often...try talking to them or a school counselor.