What should I do?

I feel so depressed I dont know why..I just dont want to be alive anymore I dont want to do anything and I dont care about anything..my brother killed himself a while ago..and I have a sister too. I just dont want to be here but I know I cant do that to my family all over again. and I will do anything to get drunk or high its like a false sense of reality for me and I love it..and no im not emo I have blonde hair and im a girly girl..most people would never guess im this way but I know I need help I just dont know how to approach it and my mom just rolls her eyes when I try and talk to her what should I do??

you reallly need to talk to someone who knows how to help your proffesionally.
but, I've felt like that before.
like nothing could make me happy..ever.

but you need to remember..
today is NOT the rest of your life.
things will get better.
God doesnt put anything on you that you can't handle.
sometimes you feel like everything's wrong, and it cant get better..
but life will suprise you..
and it will.
getting drunk and high just takes you away from it for a little bit, and when your high's gone..and your sober- your just right back to where you were.
it's not a solution, it's an escape.
but you seem to already know that.
you should really try setting down with your mom and making her understand.
tell her to listen to you.
I hope I could help.
you can talk to me anytime.
good luck and keep on keeping on.

I love you!

ask your mom to schedule a dr appt and then talk to the dr. or try to approach your mom calmly. if that doesn't work go to a school counseler. if those don't sound realistic then do you have any adults you can talk to? you can always email me (I'm a 29 yo mother of 2)

if you need to talk to someone talk to me my email is Fun mail me and my s/n is paulaxrocksx3 I know how you feel

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You are at an age where hormones, emotions and even your brain are undergoing strong changes. It is natural to occasionally feel confused or depressed.

The best thing you can do is to talk to a counselor or therapist. Barring that, find someone you can communicate your emotions and thoughts with, sort of like a sounding board. Keeping your thoughts to yourself doesn't help. If you can't find someone around you then consider Fun Mailing someone on Fun Advice.

Check out the link below for information on teen depression.

Information on teen depression:

http://www.helpguide...

  
If you are having problems or are depressed, below are a couple of sites that may help you:

Worldwide:

Check out the Befrienders link below. They are not only a suicide hotline but also offer help to people who are stressed or are in a state of depression.

http://www.befriende...

In the U.S.A., you also have access to:

Girls and Boys Town National Hotline

Call With Any Problem, Any Time

1-800-448-3000

http://www.girlsandb...

All the replies you have gotten is wonderful and you should consider them all...especially seeking out a counceler...I just have one thing to add...Write about how you feel...put your feeling on paper...you can write it as a poem or just as words...Express it...let it out...keeping it in is just hurting you more...Then if you really feel the need to talk to your mother and she is not responding to you...With a wonderful smile give her the poem you wrote and say read this poem...or leave it where she will find it...but please do not harm yourself...we all have sad times...A friend of mine from work did the unthinkable a few months ago and no one expected it!!! That hurt so bad because any of us would have done anything for her...she was an awesome person...so sweet, so kind...

please deep down inside...find the love for yourself...you have to love you...
and see that you are a wonderful person...
Remember that no one is perfect...
so don't hold your mistakes against yourself...
just let it go...
My heart goes out to you...
My prayer is for God to heal your heart!

Try talking to your school counselor. I lost a brother myself so I understand you in that part, I ALSO AGREE THAT YOU SHOULD TAKE ALL THE DRINKING OUT OFF THIS IT MAKES IT WORSE. And if your mom can't listen to you tell her I've been really depressed and the subject might bring you her attention and then she can actually sit down and listen to you. I've been like that before.. you should do some hobbies like walk around go to the park or hangout with some friends. I mean friends are always there right ? Just remember what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. So if you need anything juss hit me up on my account I go on it everyday constantly.