Twin twin twin..life life life..love love love

Well I'm not a professional kind of girl (because because write down this- if you guys think.. ) I think she's going to pissed off because of me. Related to my q. Before, I guess she's found this website and wrote about it (bout what I just wrote the...

question before) to her blog. Well, I know her for 20 years and compare to her friends, 2 years and a half?..huhu okies..
She kept mentioning that she had been through many things..a lot than other..and grown up ( a lot from me as examples) and ofcourse she had no idea what I have face before. She might thing that I just live in this world with no problem..still not grown up..-.-?? (like she mentioned : she's the one who suffer all things )..I don't know..because different people will see in different way (weather she see through me or vice versa) well , in my life, I had made mistake that really made my parent upset mad at me ( I guess she don't felt the same way like I felt) I had to accept what might be happened which is my parent wil upset / mad about me that time if I did it.. And yet, she said me as the backstabbing. She felt that I backstabbing her that time (because I had told to her friends bout what just happened, why I did that..- da~ her friends ask me to tell her that time, so I tell--- I can say her friends is the instigator here. Y? Because I need someone to talk that time.. I trust her.. I realized that I choose the wrong person) and she came back, mad at me, punch me and say I'm backstabbing her! Huh~..I kicked her aside to defence myself and she said how could I kicked her?...da~ so why she make me bleed? -__-..(well if you can see, I can say I was the one who felt been backstabed by her friends.. She had no ideas what I felt that time, being down and been kicked) back to what I had made a one decision that made my parent mad at me..I did it because I know this is the best way for us. Hope she can see why I doin this. In my way, I reather stay away far from her so we don't have these heart-fellings among us..because I can see she's having it right now with her roomate- that's why I need to do that ..to avoid that.. But she left me a deep scars in my heart. Who want to forget? If she still remember, heh~ so do I...then she keep stand her hypocrite way in her life and keep said bout it to me like I'm the cause of her being that---(not like backstabber like me) -__-.. Am I a backstabber? A backstabber who been kicked when down..-__-.. If she said she is the forgiveness forgetable person, I had told her before, just forget it and make it as simple because I had tried to forget bout it..but then she kept blaming me as the backstabber and we got a fight after that. The reason is, she heard bad rumors bout her..but from who? Her friend? Oho..ic.. While I talk to her friend that I heard so much bad rumors bout me..and what I felt when with her awhile..ha! So how come? I just tell her friend what I felt.. Then she can't accept that..this is totally wrong. Since that day, I don't want to see this instigator friends till now. Built a gap, (not a too big gap ) around us probably can take care of our relationship ( between me and her) like she said, she had to stand her own ground, so do I. Well, of course she knew that everyone have their own mind..not everyone will think as the same way like she did. If she think she is like a dominator to some people, to me exactly, I hope she can be more careful to what she's doin'..(just like her appologies in her blog)..and I know I can count on her..hey! I know her 20 years a half..lol!
She's not bad..just kinda make others felt other ways bout her.
According to my older post, if I so mean.. I will do just like the advices. But I just do my own way..avoiding..make a lil bit gap and stay on the ground. Because if I doin like the advices, theres no end.
She might think this is a missunderstood among us..so I hope she can fix it and understand what will happened if she act something.. so do I.
Like some says, if we want people understand us, we must do the same things first.
My older post says annoying twin sis--- it is just what I felt..not spreading bout her bad..come'n..everyone felt same thing with other people right?... I need some good advices from people that's all.
If she think this is like a war...I don't know.. Because she suddenly post about it to her blog.. (which is I think this is my own privacy..and yet, evryone knows about it.hurmm..)

About my relationship with my boyfriend..yeah..many people keep says trust is the best way..but how much to trust for?..people changes..environment.. Huh~ hard to say...

What do you think of it?..-___-