Transvestite and pregnant

Im a 22 year old, bisexual woman and all my life I've felt as though I've been in the wrong body. When I was younger I tried to behave normally and push these feelings away. I was always different though. I wanted to wear jeans with short hair and play...

with boys toys. when I was in my late teens I knew something was wrong and tried to find out more. After researching I realised that I might be transgender. I decided to try dressing as a boy and found that I really enjoyed it. Every now and again id dress up like a guy and travel to a different town and spend the day there. I cant explain how happy I would be if I was truly believed to be a guy. My family were shocked when I told them and now refuse to have anything to do with me. I get so upset thinking about it and sometimes I hate myself for what I am.
Anyway, I live in london and travelled to liverpool for the weekend with some friends. I hadnt told my friends yet as I was too worried after how my family reacted. We had a great night and had loads of fun. On my second night though I got really drunk and ended up makin a move on one of my guy friends. I had liked him for a while but never thought anything would happen or could happen. We were so drunk we didnt use contraception and of course I got pregnant.
Now im so confused and dont know what to do. I want a child but not as a woman but my guy friend found out and wants to be involved and try make a go of things. He dosnt know im a transvestite though and I dont think it would work as im saving up to try get an operation to make me into a man.
I dont want to bring a baby into this mess although I do want one eventually but this could ruin my dreams of becoming a man. Plus I think my guy friend will want nothing to do with me if he found out.
Im in desperate need of help, please help xx

okay I really think that if you feel this way that you shud have a child there is no reason that a child whi didnt ask to be here to be put in that mess

Okay. That is a tough one. If this guy is really a friend, you should be able to talk to him. Explain to him that yes you did have feelings for him at some point but never thought anything would happen between the two of you. Tell him that ever since you were a kid that you were confused and had those feelings and actually wanted to try being a man and going through with the surgery. Tell him you are happy that you're having a child because you have always wanted one, but you don't know what to do in this situation. I know it will be hard telling him all this but you need to tell the father of your child the truth and whats going on. That's only whats right. Maybe you could try being with him and if it doesn't work out then you could just go ahead and go with the surgery, you are besexual which means you like both sexes and are willing to be with either sex, but he may not like the idea of being with a woman that wants to be a man. Especially if he is straight. (which I am guessing he is) And yes, it will be a rather different life for this child having a bisexual Mom that is going to possibly be a man someday, and a straight Dad. I would deffinitley talk to him and try to make the best of things. Good Luck, I hope I helped, and I'm sure that everything will turn out ok in the end for you guys. By the way, he does sound like he wants to be responsible for what happened, just like you do so that is a good sign at least and maybe he will be pretty reasonable and open about it all.