Stupid girl.

So I dated this guy for about two years. We broke up a year ago on Jan. 11th. We broke up because he cheated on me and lied about it obviously. To make matter worse he was my frist everything and I mean EVERYTHING. Is it stupid of me to still love him and miss him like crazy. When he tells me that he loves me, that I always have his heart, and that nobody can't take our love away from each other. Is he telling the truth? How do I know if he ever really loved me? Will I ever find out why he cheated on me in the first place? AM I EVER GOING TO GET OVER HIM? WHEN WILL I STOP THINKING OF HIM?

Its normal for you to still love him and miss him, but the fact is, he cheated on you and lied about it!!!! how much could he possible love you when he cheated on you? he wasnt thinking about your feelings then! he may tell you he loves you still but how are you ever really supposed to know.......you wont! he has lied once he can do it again. just give yourself time away from him becos the more you hear him say I love you the more you want him. you need to cut ties with him so you can really move on.

Some guys go through things us girls dont have a clue about they are mysterious and hard to understand, I went through the exact same thing and I am still with the guy, if your a respectable girl who has won his heart, and he says he loves you, him cheating might of just been an easy way out of some thing hes tryna run away from, if he has made it clear to you that what he did was the biggest mistake of his life or so forth. Then communicate (if he is even willing to be in a relationship with you still) but I am telling you it is really hard to be with somebody who has betrayed your trust he has to win your trust back, but just **COMMUNICATE** that is the important thing find out why he did it first.
and you decide weather or not he did it out of selfishness or stupidity, cause lets face it ..men are not the brightest of creatures lol. and they tend to self destruct if things get a little bit hard.