Something on my mind

Words are like scars

Even though the pain lessens over time,its still there. just like if you fall and scrape your knee,even after it starts healing,it still hurts. Even after the skin grows back. It still hurts when you poke it.
When some one says...

something to you,if you think about it really deeply and hard,you might find meaning within the words that the person never intended them to mean. Just like when some one says something,and my guy friend and I go,ewe. we think differently about things than other people. But I've found that I sometimes think different than other people as well. If I think about something long enough,I'll find what you might call, The words within the words.
I guess you could say I enjoy thinking. well,maybe not enjoy it. It's more of an instinct that I was born with I guess. I don't know if it came from my dad's side or my mom's. Maybe it's something I developed on my own,But whatever the case,I think deeply about things naturally. I can't control my thoughts. My brain wanders so easily since I've grown in the past few years. I'm not sure if its hormones,or if it's something I've had my whole life and never noticed. But whatever the reason,My mind wanders whether I notice it or not.
It's weird how you can say something that effects a person for the rest of their life. In seventh grade, my health teacher said,your not a philosopher don't philosophy. That really stuck in my mind to this day. I can't stop thinking about it. Sometimes I catch myself thinking really deeply on something and then I'll remember those words,and I'll stop thinking like that. It's a good tool when I'm somewhere like algebra (I find my mind wandering more and more in that class. partly because I understand the material and don't feel the need to pay attention.) But when I'm not supposed to let my mind wander,those words come to mind. But the same thing happens when I want my mind to wander. It's creepy how the thing that keeps me on track at school,is the thing that prevents me from being on track other places,like home or church.
Our minds are as infinite as space if we them reach that far. I think I've heard that somewhere before. maybe Aristotle said that. Anyway,I think that's a very true statement. even if people don't describe you as,deep or,intimate you can still get very deep in thought.
One negative word equals five-thousand positive ones. I thought of that while I was walking down the hall today,recollecting on a fight my friend and I had about a month ago. I guess it was really because of the,I sing the body electric, exhibit I'd seen. It talked about cutting,teen pregnancy,drug abuse,depression,a parent abandoning their kid or kids. I realized that,even though this stuff happens every day, It still effects the people it happens to. Every day in the united states,some one will cut,some one will use drugs,some teenager will get pregnant. I was thinking today,I wish I was a part of the statistics. meaning drugs,or cutting,or something really terrible.
I feel so alone sometimes. Even though I have friends all around me. I know they care,and I know I have a great life,but I feel so alone. Like no one understands me.It's partly my fault for never talking to anyone,and when I do,I don't go into a lot of detail. I know that's bad,but I can't help it.
I really feel alone when I talk to my bff. Nothing personal against her at all. we're just not on the same page. She wants to make-out with her boyfriend,and I went through that stage when I was like,eight. I feel like I'm one step ahead of her. I feel like that's my role in our friendship. to go through it,and then help her where she stumbles. Some stuff,I will admit,she has gotten to do before me. First kiss,first boyfriend,first actual make-out,first hand holding,etc. But that doesn't mean I can't help her.
Sometimes,words can help us. They can build us up,and tear us down. One example is the three words that are so commonly used everywhere you go.I love you. I used to think that if I heard these words,everything would be fine. Nothing else would matter. But then I remembered John 3:16,For God so loved the world that he gave his ONLY son,that who ever believes in him will not perish,but have everlasting life. hey every1. I just wanna know your honest opinion. do you agree w/me or not?