Should i move on or wait on him to decide what he wants?!?

Everything is going really rough in my life with chris and my parents. Chris just wants to be friends and wants me to see other people but I'd rather not, bc it would hurt to much. I want to wait on him but then again I dont. He wants to talk to other...

girls, and take them out on a date, maybe even date, date them. It hurts really bad for me to hear all of this, but if thats what he wants then I guess thats what he gets. He said that if he dont find a girl thats he's looking for, then he said he would come back to me, if I was single and still wanted him. I do want him, but I dont want to get hurt or be the back burner. When I talk to him now I dont know how to feel, and when I see him I dont know how to feel?!? I really dont know what to think anymore!! I love him with all of my heart and always will no matter what. When we broke up in oct. I have been upset, depressed, lonely, unhappy and heartbroken. I still feel like that today, and if we never get back together then I'm going to be upset, depressed, lonely, unhappy and heartbroken for the rest of my life. I might not look unhappy or anything like that but deep down inside I do. So he wants me to move on, but then again he dont!! I met this guy last friday, and he's really sweet and makes me happy and stuff. but its just not the same when I was with chris, he was my first love. What should I do?!? How should I feel about chris?!? how should I feel about this guy I might?!? Should I move on or wait on him to decide what he wants?!? Help me please!!

OK first of all take a Deep Breath and relax when you read this....

as hard as it is you need to let it go and you must definently not talk to Chris for atleast a month and I KNOW IT'S HARD im going threw
the same thing I broke up with My first LOVE 28 days ago and I haven't spoken to her for 3 weeks and when I did talk to her my heart longed for her to love me again but after every time we spoke I would start shaking and my head would start driving me insane again.

You have to break contact and go without him for now as he clearly doesn't know how bad you're taking this. About your other problem you can private message me anytime I constanley look if people have sent me anything so whenever you're feeling that down again im just a mail away

Hang in there sweetie you still got plenty of love's to go threw but no-one compares to your first love I know.
Good Luck