Running away

I cant take my life anymore. I feel like running away to another city and making it out on my own is my only option, I hate my life. You don't know the half of it. If I don't runaway I think ill end up killing myself its that bad I need some serious help it gets me so upset and angry. I have 3 brothers and their so violent to me. Well 2 are the others an alcoholic and my grandparents resent me bekuz of his behaviour,it not my fault, they treat me and my brothers diffrently to all the other people in the family. Its my bday today and they gt me nothing even my neighbour got me more then they did. Next is my brothers they get me so f*ckin stressed,they argue constantly and are always fighting. The trash the house and break things,smoke dope so there paranoid. My mom cant control them and shes a nervous wreck now, and no good to help, I don't live with my dad he was on the run from the police like a year ago and I aint seen or heard of him since. I have no-one to turn to, I don't feel loved in my family. All I've ever done is the right thing I dont smoke drink fight cause trouble. I always learn and study and have top marks in all my g.c.s.e's. Im in college now. But I've never done anything wrong and all I get chucked at me is sh*t and I've had enough, im cryin everyday with all the shouting and fighting. Its come to where ill lock myself in my room. And were are poor and thts what has made me want to get good grades and a decent job so I don't have to suffer or my future kids dont have to live the life I've lived...but please help what shud I do I love my mom but I cnt live here anymore,and she dont understand and I gt no-one to turn to...please please help me ...thankyou alls appreciated x

Don't runaway.
It will effect everyone around you and worry people. My friends niece was just found after being a runaway and it was such an emotional wreck. Thank goodness she was found safely though.
Running away from your problems will just make things worse. Be an adult and face your problems. Negotiate and fix them. Even if you have to go on some welfare program so you can move out and be able to go to school at the same time.

Go to the counselor at your school. Or the principal. Or Children & Family Services. Or your church.
Do not just run away because you will be cutting yourself off from all possible help. Right now you have a number of sources (school, doctor, welfare, CHILDREN & FAMILY SERVICES) that you can more easily access than if you were a runaway.
And life on the streets is very dangerous.
(I don't know the equivalent to C&FS in Britain, but there must be something. They are an organization that helps kids at risk.)

I hope the very best for you.
Good Luck!!

ok. I know you love your mom ok. but this isnt really helping her either. both of you need to sit down somewhere and have a chat about whats happeneing at home. both of you are suffering and your both going your sepperate ways. you need to stick together. talk to people like doctors, councillors etc... seek help. the right help, get some drug help for your brothers tke the family to family councilling but you really need to talk to someone. your mom really needs someone to talk to. stick by each other work together.

dont leave your mom on her own, you say she cant cope and by the sounds of it you cant cope either, do the sinsible thing dont runaway. your not in this on your own.
seek help.

best of luck from naomi.

You're in college and old enough to make an intelligent / informed decision - look in the mirror, pray, and do what is best for YOU - besides, you wouldn't be cutting off contact...whatever you decide, I wish you every happiness !!

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