Another reply to my last question

weve already gone behind der backs once that was how her mum found out about the text messages thing. We do talk about it and I do assure her that ill stay and wait until her parents allow it, I love her that much you know and she sez shed do the same for me but she just keeps on bringing up the same thing as 'what if we promise to get back and find someone else, well just get hurt'. and now I feel like I've been forced into agreeing that well just see what happens now and I told her how I felt when she asked if she found someone else that I would be upset but I wouldnt stop her. Why is she being so negative to me about the whole thing now?? she did say we both still have hope, but by the way that it sounded to me, it seems unlikely that we will get back . im just getting annoyed by constantly hearing that same uncertainty with her it just seems to come up now matter how much I assure her about it and that only we can let other people come into our lives. I dont know how much more I can out up with this to be honest with you, She knows that im not very happy with her parents, but I have to respesct their decision on that. But I just feel nowadayz that I want to just end it all because shes given me an uncertainty about us now, and theres no guarantee that we will and nowadayz I dont see much hope in it. She still says she wants to see me when my family visit her parents but I dont think I can do that now because of all this, this I know sounds harsh to you but how can I tell her that in dont really want to know her parents that much now??? If I stop seeing her I know its going to hurt her, but I need to think of myself as well and if I constantly keep going to visit with my folks im just going to feel more and more hurt and I've said this to her and she understands but I just havent had the guts to say that im not going to be visiting anymore, how can I say this to her ?? I just seem to be beating around the bush on the topic can you help me on how to tell her that?? I know im going to feel very guilty because I could destroy my hopes of us getting back together but itz not guaranteed anymore and I just want to get on with my life im tired of always saying the same things to her, and I dont want to feel sad and hurt inside anymore, the last thing I want is for it to affect my life. I really do love her and everything but I feel its the end and I have to go despite my feelings for her, all I can say is that its her loss not mine because she had the chance but she keeps hurting me with her same excuse on 'wht if we find someone else', and now I think shes blown it with me, 'how do I say im not going to be visiting anymore??', I dont really want to have much to do with her now and I know its sad to hear but also I feel our communications broken down, we just keep on about the same thing over and over again and im getting sick of it now, 'should I tell her that I dont want to keep in contact??', its just everytime I speak with her by IM, it feels like im lifting a heavy weight of my chest and I just dont want to feel anymore hurt and frustration over her. if she doesnt even try to defend our relationship or me atleast towards her parents, she just lets them control it all ders not more I can do to put up with all this. how do I say that im not going to be visiting anymore?? and I dont think I want to be friends in the easiest possible way?? but I want her to know il always be a text or phone call away from her if we wnts to keep in touch.

tell her that it wont work out all all because of parents and what you keep saying about what if we find someone else....it just seems that we cant be together and tell her that you wont visit because it will hurt you too much.
and say this part exactly "I want her to know il always be a text or phone call away from her if we wnts to keep in touch." but replace her with you =]