Does anyone else want something this terrible to happen?

I want something so terrible that I cannot understand. I want a man to rape me. Hurt me in every way he wants. I want to be bloodied and disgraced. The older the guy the better, I want him to be creepy and nasty. Fat and sweaty. I want this sooo bad. Does anyone else out there feel this way?

Dear thrusht69,
I've heard of this before and it's related to faulty thinking. It stems from very low self-respect. Life if full of fantasies and they are meant to be enjoyable. When you start fantasizing about being hurt and abused there is a problem. It can stem from childhood trauma that you may not even remember or something that has recently happened. Either way, make an appointment with a counsellor; they can give you some ways to discover just what may be your problem.
Sue...good luck

Ummm yeh I wanted that before too but not the fat and sweaty part I wants a hot guy to do it lol, I can not understand why you would want this but everyone has there fansies so I guess its normal and I guess some people would want it.

I thought that befor... not a fat person though. I kinda still think that sometims that I want something horrible to happen to me by someone else

honey you ain't alone I've having that fantasy/nightmare for 2yrs its so flippin weird,but believe it or not maybe you really dont want to be raped,you just want ruff,bondage,fetish,exotic sex that what I figured out but please don't think of yourself as dirty or nasty because your really not