please help me im a wreck crying uncontrolable

(Crying as I write)Im so sad right now I dont have any direction in life I think im depressed. When I first met this wonderful guy 4 years ogo he was the light fo my life the sun to my rainy days and the key to my heart. (Crying) We were evrything you could possibly envy thatlovey dovey couple that makes out in public because we were so in love. We had planned a future together and everything we were even engaged to be married. But somewhere along the line our communication got messed up I started talkin to other people and they started to be the ones cheering me up all the time and he soon became the one that made me sad all the time. Then IT started the cheating we would go in and out of our relationship and he would cheat no matter what. He says that its his insucurities that if I leave then he needs to feel the feeling that he felt with me but what hapens when hes with me and he still cheats (sobbing) Why! we have a daughter now shes 1yrs old and I still dont see things working im not even sure why were together or how it even started. Everything that has reminded me of my past with him I've thrown out an yet I still cry (sniffling and crying) I still cry. He doesnt understand anymore and he acts like he doesnt know me anymore hes the only person I have that is close to me and he sometimes is there for me I love him and if things could just go back to the way they were then id be sooooooooo happy like before. Now he talks to all types of girls they come over here bring my daughter stuff and looking and calling him all the time. What makes it harder is all I get from him is child support and its easier to live in his house but I know I have to stop the hurt but I dont know how to im 19 years old my mother didnt teach me these things and I dont have anyone to talk to im afraids that my life is sufering from this im so sad my life was planned what do you do when a tornado destroys all of what you have built all that you had your happiness. His name is even on a internet chat site Fun mail me my boyfriend is gone. the one I used to know anyway :'( I prey for strength but everday seems harder then the last without him my SUN. But atleast I have my beautiful daughter althou with this grief its hard for her to benift. Well I've stopped some of my crying writing this out until I start again well may god bless whomever comes across this I know I need some. Bye Love Always Jessica.

Jessica. You need to get away from him. He's wounded you badly and if only making you bleed more.
I know you have a child together. Does he take care of her? he says he still wants you but is still cheating? He has some issues to resolve. I would leave him. I would give him the choice to come back only if he stopped cheating and acted like a part of the family. but it seems like you've already confronted him and it hasn't worked. Maybe you two are just too different now. You're only 19 and have plenty of life ahead of you. It isn't the end of the world sweetheart. ONE MAN CANNOT BRING YOU DOWN! Claim your independence and find someone better. You and your daughter deserve someone better!

if he cared about you he wouldnt be cheatting on you, there are no excuses. hes putting you and youre daughter at risk. you have no control over what girls he brings into yours and your daughters life. one of his other girls could be a complete nutcase and try to hurt your daughter or you. she could get jealous and try to hurt you, be jealous of your daughter and try to hurt her or just do it to get at him. think about this: You have no control over what freaks he brings into your life and your daughters life. if he really loved you these problems and him cheatting wouldnt be there. you should leave him. and tell yourself "if im not strong enough to do this for me, im strong enough to do this for my child." I know its hard to accept when youre world comes crashing down on you and all your wonderful plans get run over. bottom line: it hurts, its devastating. but its happened to a lot of good people. the quicker you accept hes not actually the one for you but is very bad to you and doesnt give a crap about you or your daughter the sooner you will move on and be happy again. you deserve a good husband, and your daughter deserves a good dad.

if he cared about you he wouldnt be cheatting on you, there are no excuses. hes putting you and youre daughter at risk. you have no control over what girls he brings into yours and your daughters life. one of his other girls could be a complete nutcase and try to hurt your daughter or you. she could get jealous and try to hurt you, be jealous of your daughter and try to hurt her or just do it to get at him. think about this: You have no control over what freaks he brings into your life and your daughters life. if he really loved you these problems and him cheatting wouldnt be there. you should leave him. and tell yourself "if im not strong enough to do this for me, im strong enough to do this for my child." I know its hard to accept when youre world comes crashing down on you and all your wonderful plans get run over. bottom line: it hurts, its devastating. but its happened to a lot of good people. the quicker you accept hes not actually the one for you but is very bad to you and doesnt give a crap about you or your daughter the sooner you will move on and be happy again. you deserve a good husband, and your daughter deserves a good dad.