Help me, please?

I am very insecure. I have very low self esteem. I have really dark eye bags which makes me look like a panda. I'm fat, fat, fat. I don't want to become an aneroxic, I just want to be skinny so that everybody will notice meee.

Almost all my pictures at...

Myspace are edited. I have many friends there, some of them are very nice to me, but when they want to meet me at school, I'm afraid. because I know they will never accept me for who I am.

I always think that my friends are not sincere when I'm with them. For instance, my friend, Sarah, she was the new girl who came in class last February, (well, it has been some time, don't you think?) She's really pretty, at first she wore glasses, I mean like really dorky glasses, but now she's with contacts, so I guess she's prettier now. Anyways, yeah, I can say she's really nice and funny and all, we share same heads, but when it comes to mistakes, HER mistakes, people never even bother to consider the wrong doings she had done.

She's so pretty that even my best friend abandoned me.

If I ever got fight with anyone, I was very extremely certain that no one would be one my side, why would she be on my side right? Sigh.

From that moment, I started to glue that perception in my head,
YOUR NOT PRETTY, YOUR NOT PRETTY
REMEMBER THAT!

I was very insecure of myself, that I wore make-up to school, (here, in Malaysia, we're not supposed to, we only wear school uniforms and stuff)

One day, my friends and I were supposed to use up a pizza voucher. They decided to buy the pizza and eat it by the poolside and swim after that.

I didn't want to.

I said, I can't swim.
(What I actually mean by this is that, only make-up makes me pretty, if ill be in the swimming pool, the water will was it all off, and I'll be ugly)

They asked why.
I said, I'm ugly
(I didn't have the chance to explain it)
After I said that, Sarah called me a baby.
But I did go swimming with them, Eventually.

Despite having many more things to be shared, I think it's enough for now.

*IN CASE ANYBODY HERE IS RELATED TO WHAT I HAVE WIRTTEN, I HAVE ALL THE NAMES CHANGED.

So the point being is that how do I become skinny and pretty?
How do I lose my eye bags? How do I make my skin fairer? How?

Being Obessed With Your Looks Calling Yourself 'Hideous Looking Cow' Won't Improve Your Self-esteem.

If You Want To Loose Weight So Desperatly Then Research It First, Even If You Just Borrow Some Healthy Living Books From The Libary.

I Know Quite A Few Over Weight People Who Are Pretty.
Just Because Some One Is Over Weight Doesn't Mean They Are Ugly.

Self-Obession, Self-Pity Shallowness Is Ugly.

if you keep telling yourself that you are ugly , finally you will feel ugly, and being overweighted doesn't make you ugly, you can use some products for your dark eye bags, you can follow adiet system, don't care about people's opinion, have fun and live your life, instead of telling yourself that you are ugly, keep telling yourself that you are pretty and you will feel that way,and remember that the your inside beauty is more important, good luck

First thing you need is confidence.
Second, if your friends don't accept you for who you are, then they aren't really your friends.
Third, glasses aren't dorky, they are beautiful.anyways, most likely, the reason they ignore her mistakes is because she is she probally confident, and so nasty comments wouldn't affect her as much.
Fourth, you wear school uniforms? So do I. And I'm not ashamed. Why should I be? Well (that was off subject.) You don't have to wear makeup to look pretty. I'm 13, I don't wear makeup, and I love the way I look. I used to think that I was just a dorky, nerdy, ugly girl with glasses. WRONG. Finally one of my friends brought me down to earth with reality. EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING IN their OWN WAY. Beauty isn't looks alone, it's how you hold yourself (CONFIDENCE) it's how you think of yourself. if you don't love your body, how can everyone else?
In the long run...you need friends who will love you, and be your friend for WHO YOU ARE. if want to contact me, I'll be your friend, I don't believe that there is such thing as ugly on any person.

thanks you guys, really appreciate all yr advices.

eating healthy should help your skin people use tea bags on the eyes or cucumbers but I dont no if they workbut eating healthy and staying actie should be enough

Eat healthy, and start walking if you really want to lose weight. Sounds like you have a very low self esteem. Stand in front of the mirror and smile and say out loud, I am pretty, and I am going to change my attitude. And beauty comes from within. I just know that you are going to be a better person. Fun mail me if you like.