Please help! dude. relationships. ugh. help.

Okay. get ready for a long story if you wanna read it all.
Okay so first off I always get so f*cking pissed off when girls are always like omg I never get to see my boyfriend, I have to wait till tomorrow blah blah blah. it's like f*ck!
No one...

f*cking understands what I have to go through. my boyfriend(we not exactly together. okay ill explain)
me and spencer broke up last week. because he moved 30 minutes away from me. we go to different schools. and its so difficult trying to have a relationship.
Anyways for a while he was like saying that he wants to be free bascially. and like be able to do anything, like if he got drunk at a party and did something with another girl, he would never wanna do that to me.
Soo we broke up. and I was hurt so bad, not that the fact of the actual break up, it's just the fact that I KNEW he still loved me. and he gave up so easily. I didnt even know what to do with myself. but all week I had the best hope and faith ever that he still loved me. and he is honestly, the best boyfriend ever. I mean there are certain parts to him that I dont like, but of course.
I would marry this boy though.
He's protected me so much, and helped me through all my hard times.
Anyways.
he texted me yesterday and said, I just want you to know that I do still love you...and a day hasn't gone by that I haven't thought about you...and I'm sorry what I did to you.
and I just broke down crying.. I was so happy.
and now we aren't necisarrily back together, but we say I love you.
and okay so the parts that I dont like is that, we hardly everrr get to talk on the phone, and like I used to have a problem where I was so needy and 'obsessive' and like.. 2 weeks before the break up I stopped and I gave him his space. that's why I was so confused about the break up.
but also...he has new friends where he lives now...and he wants to hang out with them on friday and saturday. I asked him to drink and smoke? and he said probably.
and I don't know.. cause whenever I say an opinon on stuff like this, he always gets mad:[
cause I said basically, it just hurts that you would wanna see people that you see everyday on friday and saturday instead of me. and of course he got upset. and like.
I havnet seen him in person for so long. and my moms gonna take me tomorrow to see him. and I just like, I need to talk to him.
do you think I should get over the whole his new friends taking up my time seeing him(I only got to see him like once or twice a week) and just let him do whatever?
or?
do you see why im confused?
do you think when I get to see him and just hold him and kiss him that he will be so in love with...idkk? he's a great guy, but then again, hes a guy.

*also he denied 3 girls while we were broken up last week. and he cried a lot.

I get where you're coming from (confusion wise) and distance in a relationship sucks... epically.. its so much easier when you can see the person you love
BUT
Distance is good too, it helps you figure out who you are and whats important to you and all that other jazz...
I would say though that if you wanna be in this relationship you need to accept that he now has a different 'life' and maybe try to embrace it (not if it goes against your values-drinking??) but offer to hang out with him and his friends, but also offer him to hang with you and yours...
your mom seems cool enough and supportive enough to drive you there to hang out with him, so maybe ask if you could do it more often, but don't just give and give in the sense that you're the only one doing the commuting,
but make sure to give him his space some of the time, as a guy, as much as we love and adore our girl, we need time away, time with the fellas
PLUS it makes the time spent with you (especially when its just you) that much better!

lemme know if I helped!

well I know what you mean about long distance, I live in Florida, and my boyfriend lives in Texas. ITS REALLY HARD!!! at least you get to see him! Stay strong though... everything happens for a reason and if you are ment to be together you will be!