How do i tell him i want a baby?

someone please help me. when I was 17 I fell pregnant and unfortunatly I misscarried at 11weeks ever since then I have blamed myself and have cried when ever my mom mentions it. im now 19 nearly 20 just over 4weeks ok I found out I was preg again wiv my...

new partner I was so happy and excited till I told him he didnt want this baby as he already got a 2yr old a week ago today I aborted I keep havin nightmares and this voice in my head keeps callin me a murder. my bfs been very supportive but I just regret my descion and all I want is my baby back or even get preg again how do I tell him that I want a baby. we have talked about havin kids and he wants to have one in a yr or so how do I tell him this abortion is eatin me up and I want one? x

To be blunt, in your emotional and mental state, you're the last person that should be put in charge of raising a human. If you are having this much trouble getting over a miscarriage and an abortion, you should be seeking therapy, not impregnation. How will you be able to take care of someone else when your psyche is so shattered, you can't move on with your life? Heal yourself, then worry about moving forward. Don't expect forcing yourself to move forward to automatically heal what's troubling you. That's backwards thinking and will end up placing enormous emotional strain on your child.

Find a clinic in your area for treatment before you make a decision that will end up ruining both your life and your child's.

You do NOT need to have another baby right now. You need to give your self time to process what you have been through and get over the whole thing.

A baby needs you full support, love, time, patience, etc. I don't feel like you could give that child everything it needs right now when you in this kind of state. You need to wait. There is no reason to rush into having a baby, especially when you are doing it because you feel regret for your past decisions. That is not the right reason to have a child.

I understand what your going through, I had a miscarraige myself and although at first it didn't bother me, around the time I should have gave birth I got severly depressed and sad and blamed myself for the miscarraige. Its not your fault at all you miscarried, and I can only say time can heal that pain.
As for the abortion, you did what you had to do. If your boyfriend didnt want the baby you did the right thing, wait a year like he wants. It'll be so much easier with him with you on having a baby than without his support. And TELL HIM how you feel! Of course hes a man and probably wont understand, but you need to tell him how your hurting. And please dont think of yourself as a murderer. You will have your baby soon enough. My advice is to write out your pain in a diary, or go talk to a friend, a psychiatrist, or whoever to get the hurt out, believe me, I've been there.