New Song - feedback

It's been a while since I wrote but this song is personal,I call it Word Affect - please don't trash it

Living through a very fu*ked up life yet nobody sees it Trying so hard to live it through to the day I leave yet it's getting harder each day A lot have said that I got it good but truth is I just don't at all Constant switch overs happening a whole lot due to a lot of stress People don' see what I go through cause they're not in my shoes Make it one day and you will know what the hell I go through

Yousaywordsdon'tmeanathingbutyoujustdon'tseehowtheyaffectme (2x)

Trying so hard each day to ignore all the negative stuff said to me Nobody seeing how I grew up in a terrible household But yet people always say man-up but it's so hard when your in my face I know I start arguments but that's something I'm trying to change Can't see what I'm trying to say maybe I should just explain my life then you might Cause I know I'm not getting through to you at this very moment

Yousaywordsdon'tmeanathingbutyoujustdon'tseehowtheyaffectme (2x)

Beaten down as a child - picked on all through school - made fun of Expect me to let certain things you say to me go - I think not Give me the stink all all you - stare at me see what happens I might be quiet - and I might talk sarcastically but I sure is hell have feelings You say I have a life most would kill for - I would kill myself to give it to them I would feed them whatever I have - clothe them with everything I have Don't say I got it good when I told you I don't - don't believe me - I don't care

Yousaywordsdon'tmeanathingbutyoujustdon'tseehowtheyaffectme (2x)

Words do affect in ways you just don't see (what they do to me) (3x) I'm just not like everyone! (mid scream)

Yousaywordsdon'tmeanathingbutyoujustdon'tseehowtheyaffectme (5x)

I wish you knew me better than you think you do

(SP percussion solo ending song)

What do you think of it?

song written by maggot4 song influenced by Slipknot's Purity & Eminem's Beautiful