Never said I love you!

the words I love you! kinda scare me.. I have had many boyfriends and right off the bat we have said I love you to eachother... I had tons of feelings for these guys.. but this guy I'm seeing.. for the last 5 months.. its different? I care about him so much. but yet I don't have the urge to say I love you to him. I have a lot of feelings I mean a lot..I'm kinda confused if its real and where is it going to lead? all my other relationships took place soo quickly! this one is going slow.. and I like it.. I don't understand how I should take this relationship-friendship! I would have to say its hard being stuck with all these emotions and at the same time having sex w\ him as friends.. I broke sh*t off with him a while ago.. but we are still having sex and I'm still not seeing other guys.. I don't want too.. I just want this to work.. I have asked him back.. an asked him to start seeing eachother again.. but he said no, he doesn't know yet? and he doesn't want the same sh*t to happen and he always says how can I give up so easily.. but I had a good reason to break sh*t off. an ever since we have been sleeping together.. kinda fighting... I know he doesn't know how he feels.. but I feel like hes using me and I feel very disrespected and lost??? on some thing that he has done to me... but I share some falses too.... I'm so lost???

thats bullsh*t.. I know how that feels.. and it seems to me that you are getting used... dont put up with that sh*t... take a stand.. and dont have sex with him. and if he likes you he'll stay ... ya know? but if he leaves and bitches about the no sex.. then hes not even worth your time.... good luck with all this.. I know it hurts..because I've felt it.. but.. hang in there...