Need something to replace forbidden love

I am a college student and don't really have any close friends and want to fall in love but I feel like I am transparent and everyone can see my weird, controversial, somewhat forbidden ideas. I have never had a relationship and I used to be in love...

with a boy I would not be allowed to be with and part of me wants to be forced so I stop loving the other boy that I'm not allowed to love and also I really want to fall in love, any ideas? I know I'm being vague about the boy im not allowed to be with but thats not really what this is about, I feel so empty inside I need to find a boyfriend and I really want him to be assertive.

well karate babe, I would tell you one thing
dont try so hard to find someone, because the special person wud be arriving in any moment !! who know abt that ?
what usually happens like when you are kind of frustrated, low and lonely the desires go wilder to seek solace in your man's string arms. But its not that easy you may mistake someone else to be the special preson only to realise later on that it was an illusion.

because you dont need a person just to have one, you need someone who shares your interests and understands you in atleast few way also he would be able to give you space and respect you for what you r !! because I have known many people wherein they do get fristrated and lonely hence do this mistake and regret it their entire life and to be honest few of them have committed sucide so best thing is like you have waited these mnay years so wait a little !!

I am sure you can do that in the meanwhile concentrate on your hobbies like karate or your fiction writing!! you may come up with some classic story that helps you divert your thoughts !!
Its the best way to come out of such periods of lonelyless.

Please dont say that you have weird thoughts and interests hey you can never pplease everyone. They dont do anything to make you feel better when you are low. When you start to admit that you have weird interests you are making urself an itch in the eye of other people.
it mite be weird for them but not for u, so respect urself first.

I hope this will help you to understand abt urself and give you some idea to move ahead with your happy life :-) dont think twice to contact me if you are still confused!

I think you should just mingle around with people and see what comes up. Just let the boy come to you. I know it can be hard to wait around for love to come along but sometimes in life that's what it takes and well worth the wait.

Not trying to sound rude but I would focus on yourself before focusing on getting a boyfriend. I know it seems like something ANYONE would say to a girl but I'm being serious. Focus on you because I guarantee everyone can see that you seem to be desperate.

That's the problem, though, I focus on myself too much - I study all the time and when I'm not studying I'm training (martial arts), and when I'm not doing that I'm playing violin or reading - I don't really have friends, only acquaintances. Also I don't think I seem desperate because I keep everything inside.

Search through randomness will find providence, believe me, you still young. Imagine 2000 coins is tossed to the air. There will be a time where all coins align at the same side. People might think you are different, but in a country of a blind where the 1 eye man is king. You might think yourself weird someday, the one will eventually unfold in front of you

ok allright what messenger do you use miss karate. I m using hotmail. send me your contact at Fun mail me. believe me is no spam. I m that yue jia chinese kung fu guy remember!