Trapped

I've been datin this guy name julian for some time now...8 months and I love him more than I ever imagined I could love anyone...he's pure gold, but times has gotten rough and we've moved though them still lovin each other. doesn't sound like a problem...

right?...okay so here it is before julian there was terry and terry was my all...we were friends forever and I had the biggest secret crush on him.. And 9th grade rolls around and he finally starts to see me differently. We never hooked up though until earlier this year senior year...well we flirted fooled around a bit...but in the end it felt like he was just playin with my head(until we dated senior year) didn't work how we planned and we ended it before we could ruin our friendship...time passed we're still as close as we have always been...not to long go he tells me he still loves me and he regrets letting me get away...

So the problem would be im trapped between the guy I secretly love and has been waiting for since forever...and the greatest thing that has happened to me in a long time...terry wants to get engaged like now,(he knows im in a relationship he knows I still love him and hes stated he wouldn't cause a probem between julian and I but he is serious about makin this work) he wants kids in a few years, julian still has a year left of high school he wants to get engaged in a few years...

Help me!

Ah,
I really think you need to step back away from both of them for a little while so you can set your mind straight. It's not fair to your boyfriend.