My old friend.

Okay last year I was like bestfriends with this boy who lived up my street and we go to schhol together, same year level different agers. I loved him so much he was really my best friend, I could tell him anything and feel completley safe. She was such a nice boy. Any way. I went on a holiday to thailand and I talked to him and everythinf when I was over there, but when I came back something was different, I got really sad all the time and the more he tried to help the more I pushed him away, I remember he said to me the girl I know and love wouldnt give up this easily I miss my bestfriend where did she go, I felt terrible but I didnt know. Any way we eneded up not talking for a long time, and then we started talking aging like a month later but it was all different.

Then I started to miss him and I tried to become his friend again but it was never the same.

Now he is friends with all the "popular" girls at out shcool, and he seems likea different person, he is so up himeself and I feel like he hates me now.
But the thing is I cant stop thinking about him, I like am always on his myspace looking at his comments fomr these girls. And I alwasy get myself upset about what happened last year, but then other times I hate him!!

What am I doing??
Why am I doing this??

Should I just forget about him all together??

well I think you should talk to him in privet and tell him how you fee...tell him EVERYTHING...make him listen to you...and when he dons and still acts the same way then forget about him he wont be worth your time.

Both of you are maturing sexually, and mentally, and this process may cause such a stupid and irrational reactions from both of you. The best is that if you tell him all of your feelings, even if you two will state that, you have dropped out of the paradise of your childhood. An other, a harder and more instable epoch will come into your life. You will feel intense pains and happiness in your soul. This is the pain of growing up, and being an adult. Like your mother was in pains when you two were born. Do you understand me?