My love story

love.
the most precious word.
love for your loved ones, your family and friends and everyone around you. love is special in its own way, although its a word but it brings happiness and sorrow to everyone.

2 years ago, there was this guy who's class...

was opposite mine. he started hanging out with me for I don't know what reason until one day he said I love you. I was shocked to hear those words from him. I stopped for a moment wondering why he said it. I kept getting teased by everyone around me with that guy. then we started getting to know each other. call and chat with each other. he would call me every night. I've never bother being friends with these kind of guys but when I'm with him. there's like a moment. its like you feel you're with someone special . there was a connection between us. I felt scared+confused+happy at the same moment. I think its because I've never had this feeling before. we started going out as friends. I could see him trying real hard to tell me that he really likes me and would just want to be more than friends. he came to my grandmother's house with his family to celebrate raya, he came to my house to celebrate new year with me, he came to my class and played my favourite song on the guitar on valentine's day. he gave me a card saying, I know today is a special day for you and I'm just going to say that I really love you and I hope that we'll be together in the future...

that was the sweetest a guy has ever said to me.

6months of getting to know this guy passed by, so I thought about being him. I mean why not? he's tried so hard to convince me and I think he did it. so on the day I was going to say yes, I felt really nervous! I was walking around the field thinking what should I say or how is he going to react? so there he was sitting at the grandstand with his mp3, I called him down and said YES. yes I would be your girlfriend. he was speechless and so was I. the first thing he said, I can't believe we're together. at that moment, I felt happy because after so long he tried asking me and all it was worth his effort. I made someone happy! our first date? it was the movies, I can't remember what movie but it was sweet because it was our first date officially together. no one has ever made me have that special feeling until I met him. we're both in the same school, so when we went back to school after the hols break . everyone knew we just got together. it was awkward in school. after school, he would come to my class and get me to walk to the waiting area. he would help me with my books and put it back in the locker. when I'm sad or down, he'd always be there to cheer me up. thats when I knew having him, I got to share a lot of things with him. he's always there to give me good advice. he doesnt look like the type of person that would give good advice but he is actually. he's a great singer and plays in his class band. I would always record his performance and burn it in a cd for him. I was so proud of my boyfriend! hehe who wouldn't be? he would sing my favourite songs to me. on my birthday, he suprised me and played the guitar singing my favourite song! ' it's all about you' it was so sweet looking at him play nervously in front of everyone. I knew that this guy was really special to me. on our 7months, we had our first dinner together! table for two please =) on our 8 months, he gave me ring. and inside the ring our names were engraved in it! what a sweet suprise!
we went for our first trip together with friends , and for what I learnt god tests always want to test us during the good and bad moment. something bad happened there, but it was okay when we got back.

being together with that someone special is about trusting one another, always being there for each other, going through the good and bad moments together and most of all loving that person for who he/she is.

I learned that people make mistakes and we must forgive them for they learn from their mistakes. everything was so beautiful with my boyfriend. we would hangout nearly every weekend! watch movies! swim!take funny pictures! and of course enjoy each other's company.
when I'm with him, I feel safe because I know he's protective and would look after me well. I could not know how describe this feeling because it was so meaningful and special to me. he makes me laugh with his lame jokes and acting all funny. we tell each other about our past. we would share anything together.I really fell in love. and loving that person was so ... I don't know what to say. its like we were both in love and everything was great,nothing wrong.

we celebrated new years again together clocked strike 12 and there I was in his arms watching the fireworks together. what a way to start the year! my new year kiss from my boyfriend on new years day! =) I just love him!
one thing about us, we like being colour coordinated! so one day we'll wear blue, red , black. I think we wore all the colours already? haha that was OUR thing. I don't care whether people think we're weird but I think it's sweet okay even if we dont plan what colour to wear, we'd end up wearing the same colour again! haha jinx I tell you.

my favourite part? being with him, in his arms knowing you're his girl and theres nothing that's going to separate the both of us. I love writing and for the past year we've been together he's definetely got a lot of written things from me !

we both wore red during valentines day and had dinner with a group of friends. another special day for the both of us. what we did on our one year?
he bought me cupcakes ! we swam , ate and played ps3. I couldn't believe it was already one year being together. WOW.
time passes by real fast even when you don't realize. I loved every moment I had with him. he was so special to me. so for his birthday, I made a mini birthday scrapbook card. a lot of effort was put into making the card! but definetely filled with lots of love I also gave him a tiffany bracelet. you should the look on his face! he was so happy and almost teared reading my birthday message. I guess it was worth the effort!

my boyfriend? he's always there when I need him. he's always there when I need someone to talk to, someone who understands me. he's a really undertsanding guy.
he's one crazy driver! he drives the car up to maximum speed and I don't have anything to say. that's just him. guys just love the adrenalin of driving fast don't they! but he's a good and careful driver. we love skyping ! we would skype for hours and hours just to save money on our oh so high phonebill =(

one thing I can say that falling in love with him was something I won't regret because there were so many WONDERFUL and SWEET moments I cherish with him.
I was so in love. oh yes I was. he made me so happy. he made realize to accept a persons love with an open heart and I did. I'm glad I did.

the catch, a week after my birthday we were on the verge of breaking up.
why? because he wasn't the loving boyfriend I knew and wasn't treating me right.
he actually told me on day that he just wants to be friends.
my heart sank hearing that from him. thinking about everything we've gone through was going to go down the drain and that it was only a dream?
I felt so hurt. I didn't do anything wrong and why do I get this? I loved what we had. US. I kept wondering what I did wrong until became someone I didnt know?!
its so pain when you're trying to fix it and that the person that's causing the problem is him! he was the one that wanted to get together. look at was he's doing? hurting me so badly. I never knew this was coming because I was so happy with him and I had so plans for US in the future. and I felt at that moment everything was a waste. thank god I had this 2 friends who were my shoulder to cry on. they said, do the right thing nariza. I did not call all my other close friends because I didnt want to burden anyone with what I'm facing.
so yeah I did,I felt good but then when I went back to school and saw his face. knowing he's the guy that broke my heart made me tear again. I cried again, he looked at me all confused and all. after school , we had a talk and we were back together again.

things were okay. he said as long as I was happy, he was fine. I felt there was a gap between us at that time. BUT, why now? why after so long being with him his showing his true colours again?
do you know how heartbreaking it is knowing you're not the cause and that you have to break up because of HIM. this is definetely not mutual.
the pain I was going through was something I don't even want anyone else to go through!

then, I found out who my boyfriend was and what he was doing for the past two months. he thinks I wouldn't find out! thank god people who love and acre about me actually told me what was going on. it was definetely pain knowing the unexpected. I'm sorry , I don't I would want to share what I went trough here. because enough was enough.

isn't it sad knowing the person you love and still love does't feel the same way anymore. what happen? where was my loving boyfriend? my boyfriend that would text and wish me goodnight. my caring boyfriend who's always there when I need him. where is that guy?that loving guy?where is he?

bring him back.

one thing I can tell all of you is that I did fall in love and it was beautiful.
Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind

falling in love was the best thing that's ever happened to me and something I will remember for the rest of my life. I don't think I would want to fall in love again for what I have to repeat what I've gone through. no I don't. at least this guy I fell in love with taught me how to love and care for someone .
this guys broke my heart. my first true love broke my heart. he's one great guy but I don't he actually knows that. there's so many good things he can do do be a better person. im tired of trying.I give up. why should I give my heart to a guy like this anymore?

in a way, things don't go the way we want it to be.thats okay, because we have so many people around us that love us no matter what and will always be there for us. those people are your FAMILY and FRIENDS. I'm so grateful.
I didn't expect things would go like this but I just have to accept the fact that things change and so do people. I wish that I could change him.I still do. I know I can change him,
but he doesn't seem to know. how do you make people like that realize that they can change for the good?

how do you make a guy realize that everything that we've gone through together... thickthin...happysad...goodbad... is something special and that we can still go through it with the love we've shared? how? it's sad the fact that HE was the cause of everything and I'm the one trying to patch things up!
why is life unfair?
it's not easy to let things just go like that especially the one you love most.

I know I'm not the cause of breaking up and he's the cause . so I guess in life, you must sacrifice. especially for the one you love.
so this is my sacrifice for you.

give me time to forget about you. it takes time to realize that the person you say I love you to is not there for anymore.

this has been a wonderful experience for me.
I hope that every one of you will have this experience.

we must just accept fate, what's meant to be is meant to be. to my boyfriend if you're reading this, please don't go breaking any other girls heart like how you broke mine.

We find rest in those we love, and we provide a resting place in ourselves for those who love us.

this is the end of my happy love story.
-the end

what do you think should my next step be?

The next step? Nothing happens after the end.

amaze took me forever to read but was amazin

Wow. That was a beautiful story until he broke your heart, I;m so sorry men are not what we want them to be :'(
xox

you're story is filled with undying passion which seems to have taken a turn for the worst. from how you phrased it I can only guess that you're heart wasn't the only one he was carrying. such beauty... and sorrow... it really does seem like a dream doesn't it. even if someone is in love or if they say it... that love is one of a kind. and it will live inside of your heart forever.

from all of you're experience I suppose it will be so devistatingly bruital for the next guy to come in and try to take your crushed heart. but for now... as you're heart still beats... you just live on. and enjoy the rest of what life has to offer you.
don't be too afraid.

wow .. you wrote a whole article about the guy..

he should be very proud of you .. that you loved him that much..

im a guy too and I cant understand girls by their heart.. but what I can do is just to please them..

the things I can offer them are my love, trust, and future..

I want you to know that love can be like a spider web.. sprout through many ways..

but in the end of the web, you'll find freedom and you can make your heart decide wutever you want ^^

speechless. that definitely made me realize how much of a douchebag I am for breaking up with my girlfriend and putting her through that. we got back together though. I can only hope the same for you

wow. I guess the next step for you is to move on. I know it may seem very hard to let anyone else in but when you do, and when you find the one your ment to be with...its just amazing and its worth all the other breakups and pain.

this is absolutely heartbreaking.
it is so sad but beautiful to see that there always is love in misery and fear for the one you adore.
I shouldn't have read this. I'm even more heartbroken than I was before. ];

THE END IS THE BEGGING OF SOMETHING NEW

that was one of the most beautiful entries on this site. god bless you and be strong. your one in a million.all girls are rooting for you

wow your article almost made me cry becuase I've had the same thing happen to me and I went through everything you said and done evrything you done.
im sorry that this guy didnt realise how much you loved him. if he worked just a little harder you two could have been great. ji ust want you to know that what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger. you've been through so much that you havent truly lost anything but you can now learn from experience and better yourself.