Mom is embarassed of me and likes hurting me emotionaly

Ok. I'm 13 years old I'm pretty mature for my age... And well my mom is so embarassed of me.
She doesn't like how I dress, how I am, or anything about me
We were never really close and I never had anyone to talk to
My sister has been very difficult to...

understand so I didn't talk
To her and I was scared to even see my dad b/c he would hit me and my mom so one day I started to get depressed and hurt my self that was when I was 12 then one day I couldn't take it anymore so I told my mom that my dad had raped me when I was nine and I hadn't been ok since...
My mom didn't believe me and she kept on saying I was liying so
B/c of my self harm she send me to a mental hospital...and the only reson why my dad left was b/c I didn't want to go back home
So now I'm being hurt emotionaly... I have a boyfriend who's the only one that has understud me and that's made me happy and the only that has actuallly cared and loved me and ment it...
And now my mom is not letting me see him
She's throwing away everything that he's eve given me
And I don't know what to do anymore
I've tryied suicied but thats only gotten me in more hospitals
And well how much more pain do I have to go threw with my mom haven't I suffered enough I don't know...
I need help and advice
Please

First of all, were there any police reports that your father was hitting either you or your mother? If so, Children and Youth Services should have been notified at the time of the domestic abuse. However, it doesn't seem that there was any police reports from the way that you had described the situation. Do you speak to a school counselor? Is your Mother abusing or neglecting you in any way?

emm...it sounds really hard 4 you and must be really upsettin try 2 look on the good side of things don't try to commit suicide pleasse that will like you say get you in more hospitals and problably get your mam even angrier try ringin child line 0800 11 11 or speak about it to someone at your school the problem is it is only adults who can help in this srt of situtation hope this helps??? btw wer abouts do you live?? because ther might b some one ther what about friends?? xxx

look im 13 to I think you should tell another family member or you should call da chest because they can help I calld da chestvform my friend and now she is a strat a student and she loves her new parents and her mom is in jail b/c of the drugs and my friends father is in jail so you should call da chest or tell another family member

You should definatley tell an adult about it. You could either tell a teacher at school or call childline or an adult you trust. I feel really sorry for you and hope you'll be alright. And please don't try suicide!

gO tO the pOliece hunny and killing your self is nOt the mature way tO handle this, and first Of all if you mo is embarassed Of you im sOOy tO say this but shes nOt a gOOd mOm , nO mOm shOuld b inbarassed Of their Own child srry I juss had tO say that...lOOk things are nOt always gunna b the way they r..juss live your file and get thrOugh the day hunny bun ull b 18u can mOve Out and dO what ever you wanna dO and nO One can tell you smack...gO tO the pOliece, tell a teOcher, mOve Out and im with a relative and ull b ok...take care

I definately think that you should speak to an adult/childline. youll feel better if you talk to somone about it and they could try to help you. don't try suicide again...its not worth it.