Left out! but why?

Im 20. im an only child, my parents are divorced. I have no cousins and sometimes even no friends

I have a boyfriend whom I love very much but he always goes out with his friends and never spends time with me. Even if we make plans he cancels with me...

and goes with them.

I feel so alone. Im not a bad person. Im nice to my friends and a lot of people describe me as happy go lucky. I buy them stuff and gifts.

Recently it was a friends birthday and she invited my boyfriend an not me.
Even my boyfriend didnt invite me for his 21st bday and he celebrated twice 1 time with his family and 1 time with his friends.

Why do they treat me like this?
is there something wrong with me?

I feel so sad that I have nothing to live for anymore. I have no1 to love me.
I think of dying all the time now. please help me
I dont know how to get help

hey..no ones alone inthis world...just try to get along with them often.dont shy off from parties get togethers and all..if your guys behaving so to u, then you too try sm kinda tricks wt him.try avoiding him for sm day,he ll surely get back to u.try sm social networking also.its really helpfulll

All great people feels lonely at certain point of time in life thats the way they have shaped there future. Perhaps if you can use this into your advantage and go into blogging with some philosophical values it might help you to be a great lady someday or anything that you can engaged with or you might find interest.Try avoiding your boyfriend just try you will c d result.But dont bcome emotionaly attched 2 some dumb felow you shal invite more trouble. Smile laugh and b good to your self others .Dont buy unnecesary gift 4 others people take you as weak and tak advantage.Cheer up try a new friend circle.Just remember d good times you had with those bugers and move wit d new .Bye B in touch