Is my love life bad?

Is my love life bad? I've only been out with about 5 boys and im 15 soon

I've been out with 2 boys I've actually never seen in my life but we live around the same area, but I've seen them but not recongised them at the time ( we werent going out at...

the time) but anyway I was quite close them them anway but we never met anyway it wasent long realtionship

Another 3 boys I've been out with when to my school, 1 of them (kerian) id ignore him casue I was to shy about kissing them but I wasent attracked to him at all.
The other one (edd) we were close we went out for 3 days in the holidays we dint meet cause he was booked up he eventually dumped me cause he dint want to hurt me, but he liked me as a really good friend. (jamie) other one we went out when he got exclueded from school, he had a crush on me, were been out a couple of times but id avoid meeting him. I werent attracked to none of these apart from edd.

One boy fancied me were'd meet in the city once a week and hold hands, and he wanted to kiss me, as in tounge. (we were hooking up/seeing eachother) but id make up an exsucse about kissing him. But id just kiss him on the lips.

Boys have fancied me, acouple over the internet and a couple in life.

Tbh I think im scared to meet my boyfriend becauseim scared about kissing them.

I dont know what to do, I never tell anyboy I havent had my first propa kiss yet.
I've told only a couple of my friends.

I really want a boyfriend, im quite emotional with love I want to have my first kiss soon

I know how you feel, but leave it... don't force it it'll come and then it will be specail. it doesn't matter.

Its obvious that you are nowhere near ready for any kind of relationship, so just enjoy being a teenager, and having fun, not worrying about having a boyfriend.

theres nothing wrong with that. youll get more boyfriends or a longtime boyfriend soon enough x